Yay, it's my birthday but it's during finals. My Real friends are back at home (4 hrs away) and my college friends are busy. I love having my birthday at this time of year every year. >_> And I took the birthday off my facebook info to see who actually knows. Not many do...
Unknown "★My Superman" Surprised - 16 years, 16 days ago

Neat band my cousin showed me. And the Mad Hatter look is funny/cool.
Unknown "★My Superman" Surprised - 16 years, 2 months, 25 days ago

I just checked my Pet Dragons app and I won a battle on here. I thought the commentary was funny, so I chose to share it with anyone who reads my tales.

"Flying haughtily towards your cave, Seardna looks like he needs a beating. A bite to the neck should do the trick. Cyan Bloodbane leaps from his cave opening, wings flared to full length. The neck bite ended the fight quickly. Cyan Bloodbane should try that more often."
Unknown "★My Superman" Surprised - 16 years, 2 months, 26 days ago

My other big stress recently is loneliness. I feel so alone here. It's been ongoing since Freshman year, when I was just about the only kid here that didn't come from Lexington, Bowling Green, or some other nearby place. Most of the people knew each other already, so they would all go out to eat together or hang out. I'd try talking to them but they couldn't relate to me as well as each other. "Oh did you know so-and-so? Did you go to school x or y? Oh man, I Loved to go to so-and-so place and I worked at blah blah blah. Oh yeah, I love that place/person." It was exasperating and annoying. And over these last few years my life has become more and more absorbed in work and school, so I don't usually have anything new or interesting to talk about. My life is bland and therefore I have little or nothing to say.
So now that I'm practically an outcast I get to observe all the others having fun together. Most don't have jobs to worry about. Most have parents that pay for their insurance and gas. And a lot get allowances on top of that. They have no worries besides school. But with plenty of free time that's not really that big of a problem. I envy them for that, so much. Even now I have homework waiting. I will probably be up til 2 tonight to get done with what's due tomorrow and maybe get some work done for the next day. And I have a 7:30 am class tomorrow...
My other observation of people is seeing all the couples. I'm a cashier, so it's even more apparent to me. Everybody and their grandmother seems to have a significant other. Groups of friends, especially couples hanging out together, seem to gravitate toward me. It like my fate to be the odd man out. I don't get hit on. I don't have anyone interested in me around here. All the pretty girls are taken. All the girls with good personalities are taken. I get to know coworkers only to find they're already in relationships. My classmates are all taken. Everything that'd be convenient is taken. I just want someone to have that close bond with, especially when all my friends back home are busy with each other. I want to feel loved, to feel important. I don't get that at school: the teachers pets make the same grades as me but have some outside activity the professor sponsors or already knew the professor before. I don't get that at work: I'm just a cashier that scans the customers' stuff. We chit chat some, but once the transaction is done and they leave, our contact is over and no longer means anything. The customers don't want to be my friend, they just want to pay for their stuff and get out. And at least half of them aren't even nice to begin with. They snatch things, turn the carousel thing while I'm filling the bags, try to cheat the store, stare at me (very uncomfortable, especially with groups), or just ignore me altogether. And since my life revolves around school and work now, I have nothing. I feel so alone, so without purpose. I can't find my niche. I can't find happiness. I'm bored. I'm alone...
Unknown "★My Superman" Surprised - 16 years, 2 months, 28 days ago

I had been hoping to be a veterinarian one day, but I worry that my chances are becoming more and more slim. I still need a bunch of classes, half of which seem to be chemistry (Organic 1 + 2, and Biochemistry). I absolutely suck at chemistry. A lot of it can be blamed on the professor I had for Chem 120 here, who liked the nickname of Satan that he had earned over the years. I also need a ton of hours of work with a veterinarian and experience working with animals. I can't get a job with a veterinarian though. They all want the cute girls who want to be vets. Everywhere I go there's a college or high school girl at the front desk and the other jobs are also being filled by girls. My work experience alone should more than qualify me for at least a job cleaning kennels. I mean I generally work at least 30 hours a week. I've worked at only 3 jobs (had to quit two for college and they were bad enough not to return). I have earned TWO excellent evaluations at my current job ($0.60 raise with each) and I put quality into my work. But I guess that's not what they want. Who really needs a hard worker? The only one that Did respond said I would have to work over breaks, even though they Knew that I live 4 hours away from school. And the dorms close on major breaks so I'd have to find a place to live for a month for christmas break. And for Thanksgiving I was told, "Well we could work you a morning shift on the day of thanksgiving and then you could drive home to see your family. Then you could drive back the next day for an afternoon shift" (which end around 6 or 7). That basically means they expected me to drive 4 hours, spending At Least $60 in gas, for maybe 4 or 5 hours with my family. Granted, I'd enjoy that time, but 8 hours of driving and $60+ for only 4 or 5 hours is crap. And I'd still have to find a place for Christmas break and Spring Break... And who knows what they'd expect for summer break...
Unknown "★My Superman" Surprised - 16 years, 2 months, 28 days ago