my..owner..ran..away :(
Unknown "καλλονή" Evasive - 16 years, 4 months, 5 days ago

The feelings I have at this moment in time...are unbelievable.. I am..seeing so clearly..I wish..the blanket of fog had never disappeared.. is this..where it comes to..is this..what happens now..
am..I really this worthless to my love..? I tried to be so perfect...I guess..its okay..my heart is returning to its icy state..

I was happy for awhile..I actually felt something..but..its gone again..like a spring flower that had sprung into life..that now lays crushed in pieces all over the ground...

eating is becoming a problem for me again..I was..slowly getting better but..I cant really bring myself to eat..it just makes me sick.. I try to think of how it all started..but..I cant..I dont know how..why or what made the ED start in the first place..in a sick twisted way...its been my closest friend for years..

why..do I feel this way...why are things always so messed up...
Unknown "καλλονή" Evasive - 16 years, 4 months, 11 days ago

hello loves. I havent said anything in awhile..I've been busy..you know..living my live...playing video games...and thinking about the next steps or leaps I am going to take.

I hope everyone is doing great..even if I dont know you..or have never spoken to you...I hope your life is everything you were hoping it to be...

happy valentines everyone.

*hugs you all*
Unknown "καλλονή" Evasive - 16 years, 4 months, 24 days ago

I've always been kind of tomboyish..you know..one of those girls who loves video games..working on houses..building things..

today..one of my sisters girl friends had a dead animal somewhere in her house.. she kept throwing up from the smell..I came into the kitchen where my sister was talking on the phone to this girl..

I got excited about it and sister let me come..I have a really strong sense of smell..and I'm kind of small so I fit in a lot of places..

we looked around in the washing room for a bit and asked if they thought it was in the installation.. we went outside and because I was the smallest I got to crawl under the house..I was so happy about it..I love doing things like that.

long story short I found the dead animal..and it was indeed in the installation..

I didnt think and I was cutting it out..a lot of installation fibers got in my lungs and now it hurts really bad..as the day has gone on I feel worse and worse.. :( I hope..maybe..I just caught a cold..and it isnt the installation that is making me so sick..

and for anyone who was wondering..the dead animal was this 20-25pound opossum...
Unknown "καλλονή" Evasive - 16 years, 5 months, 13 days ago

I've been..really happy lately..its a strange feeling
Unknown "καλλονή" Evasive - 16 years, 5 months, 16 days ago