Ok geesh where do I start with my MIA stuff.. Im gonna sorta work backwards and forwards and tie all this in together... hopefully.. ha ha
a lil more than a month ago my father fell on the ice and laid there for over an hour.. he's been having trouble with his pace maker. I guess that got things really rolling on a down hill slide.
Most of you know about Makalea she has a venous malformation buried in her L arm. Her pain level rides all the time between a 7-9. So she has chronic pain.. now for us adults thats a boat load of shit to handle.. now hand that pile of dung to a 15 year old.
Now on top of that throw her Aspergers syndrome ( high form of autism ) her mood disorders which in an hour she can go from being one thing to another... and her anxiety.. now.. its a fun day sometimes.. but the pain clinic doctor has tried numerous drugs... and approaches.. from acupuncture to massage to nerve blocks (( my reasons for the numerous trips to Columbus children hospital. ))I've had people pray.. and all but hanging her upside down to take her mind off the pain.. nothing's worked. She's been really using me as her whipping post due to the pain.. I've been trying to deal.. bite my tongue and understand what she's going through... In January this thing in her arm started growing and changing.. you can see it under the skin and feel it..
Meanwhile in January ... my x hubby her father had decided though not mad at Makalea just doesn't want to have anything to do with her.. She's contacted him numerous times.. He's even been two streets over and wouldn't come over.. his texts have been very short or no response and this has crushed Makalea.. Her older sister came by and made an innocent comment that her and their father went out to breakfast.. Makalea was so so hurt. All these things contribute to her pain level that affect her arm..
The school called two weeks ago informing me she would have to come to THE school to take OGT tests (( tests to graduate)) She goes to school on line due to she can't handle the smells, noise and all the kids due to her anxiety and aspergers. WHICH THEY KNEW.. Last week she flipped out on me driving at 65 MPH.
The school was called the following morning since they were closed when we got home after almost wrecking the car. The tests were moved to the church, which she thinks she passed.
We wont know until we get the results.
The day after she broke up with her boyfriend who she'd been with over a year in a long distance relationship.
David's been different since his grandpa died.. very closed up and off towards everyone.
I mentioned to a few of you about a few health problems of my own.. a disc slipping while i was sleeping.. I still haven't been able to get to the doctor about it but im sure it did for the symptoms are the same.. my right arm is numb.. thumbing is almost impossible for more than ten minutes. I cant feel the mouse. So thats now makes a total of 10 ruptured discs.
Sooo. Makalea is going to see the team like on house the TV show at the Cincinnati children's hospital since we've screwed around with the Columbus hospital for 12 years and they just shrug their shoulders and say " gee we don't know what to do for her " this is april 13th
The cost is 500.00 for them to just LOOK at all her tests before the consultation.
She's not talked of killing her self again.. but I think she's thought about it because the pain is so very bad. So im back to not leaving her alone again too much and she said today she KNOWS she's sleeping too much and she doesn't want depression to set it.. nor go into crisis. Crisis meaning cutting or ending back in the psych hospital for the fourth time..
my parents.. sigh.. my mothers diabetes is worse.. so im over there mon, wed and fri when I go to town for Makalea to exercise with her elderly people. my mother some how let her insurance lapse.. so she has none and can't get any Medicaid or social security till this summer..
Saturday the puppy peed on the corner of our bed for the third time that day.. he peed on the toliet..
we are getting him neutered Thursday to see if that fixes the problem.. last night he peed on the clean laundry in the laundry room after just going outside. both vets that i discussed this with today said this IS a marking your territory issue..
Thank you for those of you that put very caring where are you notes in my inbox and on my page. It made me feel very loved and missed.
Im just very very stressed.. Farmville has been a very nice change of pace for me. Not so much clicking.. and I've read a TON of books.. read the whole Bones Tv series books. and a few other series.. I haven't forgotten anyone.. I think about you all alot and wonder how your doing.. and I do miss you.. and I will be back I just need the dust to settle and time to regroup.
Thank you all for taking the time to read this.. if you want to email me.. which i dont check that super regularly either lol
its ibtreasure @ hotmail.com.
I put up pics at facebook of Eli and Kye ( the dogs)
and Makalea and Brianna. My handle over there is the same as here.
Darling Gina "*DARLING*" post @ the co-op :)
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