So, before everyone ask me the same question over and over agian, I thought I put my reason of disappearing in my tales.

I disappeared at first to be with my Mother who as you all know wasn't doing very well. And that took a major toll on me. I was devistated at the thought of losing my Mom because she was one of my best friends. But during that time I spent with my Mom I began to realize that life is short and that I never did the things I set out to do when I was younger.

So I asked Mikey to buy me out of the bakery (I know this was our dream but my heart just isn't in it at the moment and I never meant to hurt Mikey). I had a talk with Erik and told him that I loved him but I need to be on my own until I can love myself. He said he would wait for me which I thought was sweet. And I packed my bags up and am heading West for a few months to find myself.

I know this might sound selfish, but don't we all need to find out who we really are before we settle for who people want us to be?
Joshua Parks "ME JOSHIE!" confused - 16 years, 1 month, 7 days ago

Are you tired of those sissy 'friendship' poems that always sound good, but never actually come close to reality? Well, here is a series of promises that actually speak of true friendship. You will see no cutesy little smiley faces - Just the stone cold truth of our great friendship.

1. When you are sad -- I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.

2. When you are blue -- I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

3. When you smile -- I will know you are plotting something that I must be involved in.

4. When you are scared -- I will rag on you about it every chance I get.

5. When you are worried -- I will tell you horrible stories about how much Worse it could be until you quit whining.

6. When you are confused -- I will use little words.

7. When you are sick -- Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have.

8. When you fall -- I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.

9. This is my oath.... I pledge it to the end 'Why?' you may ask; 'because you are my friend'.

Friendship is like peeing in your pants, everyone can see it, but only you can feel its true warmth.

Remember: A friend will help you move. A really good friend will help you move a body. Let me know if I ever need to bring a shovel...
Joshua Parks "ME JOSHIE!" confused - 16 years, 2 months, 18 days ago

My mother has not been feeling well for a while and she didn't think anything of it. Then Saturday she had a dizzy spell and fell down the stairs of her house. I did not know anything about this until late Sunday night when my father called me from the hospital.

When I got there he told me that my mother's cancer came back from remission and had formed a tumor in her brain. My father told me that the doctors don't think she will make it though the year.

Sorry This is all I can say about it at moment without wanting to die.

Joshua Parks "ME JOSHIE!" confused - 16 years, 2 months, 27 days ago

Well 1 week to the opening of the bakery. It seemed so far away but now it is right around the corner. Hope everyone is well.
Joshua Parks "ME JOSHIE!" confused - 16 years, 3 months, 19 days ago

This is a cover of the Ryan Huston song Love You Forever
Joshua Parks "ME JOSHIE!" confused - 16 years, 3 months, 28 days ago