I'm so sorry i haven't been on for awhile. Esp to chris. In all honesty i have been so busy and hp its just seems to be getting boring. I've had a hell of the last few months.
As you all know (if you know me) I'm due to start uni soon. But i didn't make it into halls so i had to find my own house. But stupidly i bite of more then i could chew and i said i would sort out a house for a few people on my course. It has been proved to be a night mare. one of the guys backed out before we about to view the house but that was ok because we still had 3 people, it was still affordable. we sore the house and fell in love with it we filled in all the paper work and started the ball rolling so to speak. Our credit check all when though and we was given our date to move in, i quit my job. Everything was getting exciting. 3 days before we was due to move in the 3rd guy bailed, me and the other guy couldn't afford it between the two of us. So we was stuck we had to find someone else and quick. we didn't move in that weekend. And finding them people was a nightmare. I worked my arse off i even took people to view the house. luckily it paid off i got two more people. i'm just so nervous its all going to flop again. Im sure it will work out. Im due to move in this sat.
On top of that. My aunty died. i wasn't very close to my dads side for personal reasons down to my dad but we went any way. He didn't even turn up to his own sisters funeral what a ahole. in a way i'm glad because it would be hard on us to see him after all this time. But it was his sister. A good think has come out of it. We got back in touch with my other aunty again and it has been amazing. I've spent so much time with her the last few days, trips to the zoo, takeaways and going to the pub. we have had such a laugh. i've missed them so much. This time i wont lose touch.
So anyway uni on sat ... i'm so nervous, excited,happy, sad. But i'm so glad its going ahead i nearly dropped out due to all the drama of the paper work the house. but i've made it this far and i'm not going to quit now. just keep your fingers crossed for me
cat_catali "♥My Sweet Nerd" Dorky ! - 15 years, 2 months, 19 days ago

Oh so here is the deal of what has happened in the last week plus. One for some reason i couldn't log on to hp? Im not sure if the problem was theirs or mine. secondly I've have been working a stupid amount of over time trying to afford to live when i go to uni. Its been so mental as the new supermarket has just opened i never knew there was so many people in our town just coming to of course have a look. i was so rushed off my feet. I've thankfully finished my overtime for this week. Money is money right?
i'm getting more and more nervous about uni, and weather i chose the right course.. don't get me wrong i want to do it is just everyone is a bit nerdyer then me and there all hardcore gamers .. which iam not. I still have so much to learn and im trying to pick up and read all this info. i just want to fit in and not feel the odd one out.
The house is coming on i faxed all mine and sams forms to the housing agency after neil let me down and didn't get his forms to me on time. I feel a bit pissed of with him but he always manages to sweet talk me bless him. i told him to ring them up and explain. As long as we have the forms into day then i guess we should have the house :D .. trust me ive been so stressed over this. Once i have the keys in my hand ill be a changed woman.
I honestly don't know how i feeling right now . everything is a bit out of my control and i want it all to be a lot more organised. I hate relying on other people in regards to life changing things but on the other hand i have to learn to trust people more and relax.
I meant to be quitting my job on the 16th of aug. So that's 3 weeks to earn money. I cant wait to quit working there its taken up four years of my life. now i need to move on to bigger and better things if i don't leave now i feel ill be stuck there forever. i couldn't cope.
a lot of other really personal stuff has happened this week but i have learnt the support is there i just learn now to carry such a heavy heart.
cat_catali "♥My Sweet Nerd" Dorky ! - 15 years, 3 months, 27 days ago

haha here's another instalment into my life if you actually care ahha.
Right went to view a house on saturday the one i wanted all along.. it was safe to say it was amazing, so cheap, so clean so beautiful. I'm hoping i'm going to be very happy here.
I rang up this morning got the admin's money sorted so they can take the house off the market and contact the landlord. So that's all sorted now i just have to get a few forms filled out and all that jazz (and get the money together... )Then happy days !!! I'm really excited.
My house mate sam who i have met is amazing! love the guy we had alot of giggles so i can tell were going to be good friends there.
Neil on the other hand seems nice but i haven't met him, i asked someone about him today and they said he was a computer addict and hardly ever when to uni if at all. Well see you cant judge a person without seeing them and differently by word of someone else.
Not much else has been going on. Just trying to get everything ready! mums driving me up the wall she doesn't listen to anything i've told her. Regardless i'm proud that i have sorted this out all by myself. Cinema i think tonight ..maybe stay in and watch a dvd who knows?
Hope your all well.x
cat_catali "♥My Sweet Nerd" Dorky ! - 15 years, 4 months, 8 days ago

I feel a bit better... even though a guy pulled out of the housing and has left me right in it. I need to find another person for the four bedroom house and were viewing on Saturday!!! I calmed down and spoke to my mum. She promised me everything will be alright and I believe her so I am going to keep working hard and not make it an issue. I guess everything happens for a reason and what done is done. That’s a lesson i have to learn. Despite the pass my mistakes , my upbringing I can only do my best, learn from my mistakes above all else use the cards dealt for me and work towards a goal.
I’m really excited about uni, spoke to a lot of fresher’s like my self.. and I’m starting to get the feeling I’m going to have the time of my life. Although it has to be said my art skills are crap incomprason. I guess I have to take my own advise, I just have to work at it.
I did dye my hair, I’m back to black. I think it looks better, well at least for now until I get sick of it lol.
I’m of to Keith’s gig tonight it should be good. Keith is really talented I just hope one day he gets the break he deserves. He is a good guy and the hardest working person I know. I’m not sure if we'll last as a couple much longer. I love him don’t get me wrong but I’m starting to feel my path leading in a different direction. I hope we work it out if not I’m sure we can and will remain friends. Only time will tell xx

Love to you all.

ps. <3 u Chris. Thank you for always been there. Your a wonderful person and a great friend! xxx
cat_catali "♥My Sweet Nerd" Dorky ! - 15 years, 4 months, 11 days ago

Right now i feel uber stressed out, i havent been sleeping right and everything seems to be getting on top of me. I honesty feel shit.. the more i try to get everything done and ready the more i seem to fail. It seems really hard right now especailly as my sister is just sailing though.. without doing anything. shes even going on holiday tommorrow. I hate being jelous its a nasty thing.
i just have to settle this war with my self and get my act together. I decided i dont feel like a redhead anymore im going black to black.It seems to fit my mood better.

'you dont quite look like yourself, if you walk around looking like someone other then who you are you could end up getting the wrong job, the wrong clothes and who knows what else you could end up with someone elses whole life'
Its from my favorite movie :)





You dont see how beautiful the film is on this small flick.ps the book is even more amazing !!
cat_catali "♥My Sweet Nerd" Dorky ! - 15 years, 4 months, 13 days ago