It's awkward and silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it I'll believe it
If you text it I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not comin' back
You're taking seven steps here

The seven things I hate about you
You're vain
Your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You made me laugh, you made me cry, I don't know which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks when you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention
The seven that I like

The seven things I like about you
Your hair
Your eyes
Your old Levi's
When we kiss, I'm hypnotized
You made me laugh, you made me cry, but I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine when we're intertwined, everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you
Unknown "bubblicious" Sparkling - 16 years, 4 months, 10 days ago

All those endless times
We tried to make it last forever more
And baby I know
I need you
I know deep within my heart
It doesn’t matter if it’s wrong or right
I really need you. Tonight.
Unknown "bubblicious" Sparkling - 16 years, 4 months, 25 days ago

At least i'm not fake.
I wear you on my sleeve.
I wont let this get me.
I wont go crazy.
I'm smarter than the enemy.
I'll win.
It wont hurt anymore.
Unknown "bubblicious" Sparkling - 16 years, 5 months, 13 days ago

He judge me and tried me.
I the sole reason for all that hurts him.
When his soul burned red with pain it was me who he pointed his finger at.
I was to blame.
Me. The one who he says never loved him, yet has never left.
He says i don't know pain. Only his is real.
I disagree. I know pain.
I have felt the pain of betrayal, ridicule and of abandon.
I have felt the pain of loneliness and fear.
Constants it seems.
For they are all i feel now.
I lost myself and can't find me in this hell.
I am certain i am too far gone to ever come back.
He hates me for what i have become.
I am only his most precious creation.
The one he must be most proud of.
For i was created according to his image.
He made me him. So he would not have to walk alone...
Feel this way through life alone.
But i didn't deserve it.
I just loved him.
And have been doomed for it since the first day.
This love is heavy, like a much too big cross to carry on my back.
He is my star. I idolized him.
I made him my king.
He uses me to fill in the occasional voids.
When everyone else is not present.
Quite often.
I get the scraps he gives me.
I know pain. Trust me and hear me when i say this.
I hurt for me..but i hurt more for him.
I lost that man. He doesn't even know it.
He doesn't even know he is gone but he knows he'll never be back.
I miss him and adore him.
My tears are meaningless.
My sorrow unnoticed.
I am nothing but a burden. A failure.
Am i not a woman?
Do i not know how to love him?
I do know.
He just doesn't want me.
Unrequited love. For six years.
Poor fool he's made me.
I have nothing more to say to you, Master.
Sooner than later he will cut the rope.
And i will fall.
Fall back into a sane world.
Until then...



Peasants.
Unknown "bubblicious" Sparkling - 16 years, 5 months, 13 days ago

ou say I forced you into this. Forcing is not what I wanted.
Who would have thought that all day my head would be haunted?
Haunted with the words that stabbed me in the heart.
Words that sunk into me like a rusted, deadly dart.
My personality repulses you. Well that is who I am.
That’s what I turned into when you stopped giving a damn.
I wanted only to hold you, kiss and love you.
You wanted a play partner so me you only saw through.
You say you don’t care if my heart aches on all its sides.
Because according to you…you are in this only for the ride.
For all the wrong reasons, not because you love me, you need and want me.
But because you don’t want others the truth to see.
You left me hanging dry and cold.
Always two steps beyond my grasp so to you I cannot hold.
My soul is tired, my heart hurts no more. My thoughts are drowning in sorrow, not hope.
I keep praying to god on my knees to please this time let me cope.
But it’s useless I’m walking the never-ending too thin rope.
Will you ever see me and notice who I am?
Or forever my love condemn?
You’ve been distant before but today you are so far away.
I have lost all words, prayed all I could pray.
It is obvious that what we once had like you said: “Will never be the same”.
Perhaps you are right. Time is up on our black flame.
So now I will mourn the lost of you once again.
And maybe this time once and for all break free from your dooming chain.

Dimming Black Flame.

Unknown "bubblicious" Sparkling - 16 years, 5 months, 13 days ago