Lol. I sprained my ankle and screwed up my foot.
In calculus.
Rishy DeWinter "Protected kitten" Abused - 15 years, 8 months, 15 days ago

I want her back.
Rishy DeWinter "Protected kitten" Abused - 15 years, 10 months, 28 days ago

Last night was insane. I hate when people die and suddenly rumors start flying. I thought another of my party friends died, but it was a typo and its one of Glen's friends that I don't really know. So then I thought one of my best friends' older brother was the one to kill her. THAT was a mess.
The worst part was reading the story on the internet, and someone called him and his family monsters. And his little brother is so sweet, and his mum bartends with me and takes care of me, and they're so damn sweet. So I got really angry that all these people were speculating on what happened, and saying Ash must have been in a gang and all this crap, and they never even knew her. And saying that about my friend's family put me over the edge. I left quite a furious comment and I cried because it hurt and I was so angry.
So I called my friend, and long story short, I was given another wrong name. It's like one of his cousins, but not his brother. Wow.
So I went to Bri's and we watched Baby Mama. Which made me giggle. And I had my first caffine in eight months, which... I don't really think I've been missing out on too much. Speaking of which. I get my staples out tomorrow!!
-- Amanda, please don't be angry or hurt because I haven't talked to you in a while. Things have been complete chaos and I'm trying to get it all settled. Smile for me--
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Rishy DeWinter "Protected kitten" Abused - 15 years, 11 months, 1 day ago

Well. Girlie has other plans, so it seems, so I'm pretty alone. First time in eight months. Weird, huh? I have a side story.
Me and this dude (I'll call him Bob) dated a few times, and it just didn't work out becuase I wasn't exactly sober and he hated that. And so now he lives with another of my Ex's (I'll call him... Mogli) which sucks. They tend to both text me and give out my number to people to help harass me. So Mogli is going to jail soon and we actually talked a bit.
But here's the thing. Bob might be a jerk... he told me to drink bleach until I kill myself, another time he said he hopes I kill myself but the issue with that is that someone would have to clean my "sorry ass" up.
So anyways. I still feel really really deeply for him. And... I'd go back to him in a heartbeat.
Today he told me to f"ck off, and I told him to give me a chance. He agreed to give me five minutes, and I'm not sure when, but I'm really nervous. I can't afford to screw this up.
Rishy DeWinter "Protected kitten" Abused - 15 years, 11 months, 4 days ago

The viewing was tonight. Cody and I met Trevor there, and we sat in the room for a long time. And I was okay for a while. Until I started remembering everything. I went out in the hall and cried a bit, and found two friends and held them for dear life, and went back in. And I didn't want to make Trev cry, and I didn't wanna worry Cody, so I tried to hide it.
Trev and I went to see Seth. And I lost it from there. One of my friends hated Seth, and he said he was glad he's dead and so is Brian, but I grew up with Brian, and he killed himself. And I hate my friend for saying that, I hate him....
I can't handle death. I can't handle it when people cry, and hurt... And you could smell death, and Seth looked so... broken...
Cody held me on the way home, he was my sanity. I needed him so bad.
Thank you toady.
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Rishy DeWinter "Protected kitten" Abused - 15 years, 11 months, 12 days ago