Well it seems to me that I tend to wake up and feel nothing.
Not lost, nor love, nor hate, not dispair, nor laughing,nor sadness
It seems my heart has gone back to the rock it once was for a brief time this year it was pumping, now it is a rock, thats the way I like like it protected from the elements. The hate, the love, the war. No I do not know how this life is supose to end nor do I know how it is to lived. But now I know it all about what I want and what I need in life...


Unknown "chaos control" Annoyed - 15 years, 6 months, 2 days ago

Six o'clock in the morning
My head is ready to explode
I can't believe I made it home alive
I don't remember where I went
Or what I was drinking
And now it's made me sick
And I'm not denying
That I get this way
When I try to get over you
I get this way
When I try to get over you
Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love

I tried so hard to hate you
But it only makes it all worse
I only end up hating myself
And as my hatred grows
So do the lies
It's hard to face the truth sometimes
God I feel so useless
God I hate myself
When I try to get over you
I hate myself
Will I ever get over you

Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love

And after all this time you'd think I'd understand the way you feel
But no
I only think about myself
And it's driving you away
I always knew it would one day

Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love
Unknown "chaos control" Annoyed - 15 years, 6 months, 13 days ago

Sometimes, I said sometimes
I go crazy, Like I'm crazy
It takes patience, Lots of patience
Then it's over, fucking over

I look at the sky, faded,
I reach, the stars

Maybe I don't know
How many people are starving
In this world long gone

Sometimes, I said sometimes
I go crazy, Like I'm crazy
It takes patience, Lots of patience
Then it's over, fucking over

I look at the sky, faded,
I reach, the stars

Maybe I don't know
How many people are starving
Maybe I don't know
How many people are starving
In this world long gone

I look at the sky, faded,
I reach, the stars

Maybe I don't know
How many people are starving
Maybe I don't know
How many people are starving
In this world long gone
Unknown "chaos control" Annoyed - 15 years, 6 months, 14 days ago

The Build.....

1 - 1997 300zx Twin turbo
1 - JUN stroker kit
1 - cam gears and shafts
1 - head work done by DTECH Motorsport
2 - Garrett GT3076R's
2 - Synapse 50mm wastegates
2 - Synapse BOVs
1 - Link G4 Extreme ECU Tuned by DTECH Motorsport
2 - AP Racing 378mm rotors front supplied by DCH Motorsport
2 - AP Racing 356mm rotors rear supplied by DCH Motorsport
2 - cp6360 6 pot calipers front supplied by DCH Motorsport
2 - cp5040 4 pot calipers rear supplied by DCH Motorsport
2 - Racetech RT9119HR seats
2 - Racetech 5 point seat belts
1 - Tremec T56 6 speed
1 - Sonic racing bell housing with rear mount starter
1 - Tilton 4 plate clutch 140mm
1 - Carbon propeller shaft
1 - Richmond leader gears for the R230 diff 4.111
1 - chromemolly subframe
1 - hicas lockout system
2 - Carbon fibre doors
1 - Carbon fibre hatch
1 - Carbon fibre bodykit
1 - Carbon fibre dash
1 - chrome molly cage
1 - Hardtop conversion

to accellerate from 0 - 100 mph - 0 in 16 seconds very sore...
Unknown "chaos control" Annoyed - 15 years, 9 months, 1 day ago

The world is a vampire, sent to drain
Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
And what do I get for my pain?
Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game

Even though I know - I suppose Ill show
All my cool and cold-like old job
Despite all my rage Im still just a rat in a cage
Despite all my rage Im still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage Im still just a rat in a cage

Now Im naked, nothing but an animal
But can you fake it, for just one more show?
And what do you want, I want to change
And what have you got when you feel the same

Even though I know - I suppose Ill show
All my cool and cold-like old job
Despite all my rage Im still just a rat in a cage
Despite all my rage Im still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage Im still just a rat in a cage


Tell me Im the only one
Tell me theres no other one
Jesus was an only son
Tell me Im the chosen one
Jesus was an only son for you

Even though I know - I suppose Ill show
All my cool and cold-like old job
Despite all my rage Im still just a rat in a cage
Despite all my rage Im still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage Im still just a rat in a cage

Tell me Im the only one
Tell me theres no other one
Jesus was an only son
Tell me Im the chosen one
Jesus was an only son for you

Despite all my rage Im still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage Im still just a rat in a cage
And I still believe that I cannot be saved
Unknown "chaos control" Annoyed - 15 years, 9 months, 9 days ago