There was nearly a blip.
A small but significant one.
So stupid.
An argument, not even really that, a tiff over a car he wanted to buy. I point out its boot has no room for the dogs, he gets sniffy... I ruined his good idea with practicality.
So we go on, to the shop where he said "I NEED a beer." and buys one.
I glare, he ignores me.
In the car I cross my arms and stare ahead, not wanting to pick a fight in front of the kids.
"whats wrong?"
He knows whats wrong. His face has that shut down , defensive look, his eyes are everywhere but looking into mine.
"You know what."
"The beer?"
Nod.
"Fine, I'll throw it if it will make YOU happy."
"Not the point."
He half tries to make up, asks for a smile, I give it too him but its small. I'm not ready to give anymore. I've learnt to ration my forgiveness in the past.
He closes the door and shakes his head, he smiles in a smirking way.
"Just let it go, its pathetic."
Its like a slap to the face.... and he was going so well.
At home he apologises, properly this time.
I t ell him that his 10 minutes of pleasure will mean a week of walking on egg shells for me and the kids.
He knows this.
He says he was upset about the car, it was a knee jerk reaction.
We make up.
I pour the beer down the toilet.
He doesn't ask where I put it.
Kelly the wenchish gypsy "המכשפה" Stuffed with tofu
- 14 years, 2 months, 8 days ago