Just like a falling glass,
I watched as your heart fell to the ground,
The shatter of the pieces were harsh enough,
There was no need for any sound.

And still I felt the pain you held
And I cried the tears you wept,
I dreamed the things you saw
And harldy ever slept.

They say it is easy to break a heart,
With that I do not disagree,
But when your heart is connected with the other
You can not escape the pain so easily.

You think that I have no idea
On what I put you through,
My dear you do not see that I
Was feeling just as beaten as you.

I was drowned by my insecurities,
And I was chocked by demons unseen,
I danced around my life so perfectly
It all seemed just like a dream.

You still have no understanding
On what exactly went on with me,
Why I ran away from something
That fitted together so perfectly.

I can not explain to you why
And probably never will,
Because it is something I myself
Am trying to figure out still.

I still can not apologise enough
For walking away from you,
But I am not turning back
I am living my life, starting new.
Unknown Cheeky - 16 years, 10 months, 10 days ago

To everyone in my life
that I've hurt, or mislead,
that I've drowned out in my confussion
or intention I've misread..

I'm sorry for my ignorance
for being obnoxious and blind,
not appreciating your help
knowing in you i can confide.

I've learnt how to live
holding secrets close to heart,
revealing only pieces
a burden hard to cart.

But with the help of my friends
and those who truely care,
I've moved on, learnt to smile
just knowing i have you there.

So you all are so valued,
in my heart and in my mind..
thank you for you patience..
true friends are hard to find.

Once again I'm sorry
for anything that I've done,
i love you all so much,
you all are my light, you are my sun :)

Unknown Cheeky - 16 years, 10 months, 10 days ago

An empty echo of laughter,
covers the in-demiscible sound of tears,
a dark cloud of pain and emptiness
shadows over many of my lost years.

Enough tears to fill the ocean,
enough pain to kill a herd.
enough silence to scorn a deaf man
my soul still burning from your words.

My body aching from the torment
that you have had me lead.
Waking up from this torturous slumber
I may seem alive but inside I am dead.

So smile for me and show me,
that once I have made you proud,
I have been for one mere moment
good enough to sit upon your cloud.

That my pain and suffering was worth it
that losing my soul made you see,
everything I have done in this life
was in the hope you would appreciate me.

Tired of not being good enough
exhausted from trying to be.
I am no angel nor close to it
I have only ever been, just me.

Ashamed to be your daughter
and yet so proud of whom I have become,
You cannot erase my memories,
what you did is already done.

So I smile to those who I talk to,
and I pretend that all is well,
everyone is so blind to see
I am burning away in a living hell.

Unknown Cheeky - 16 years, 10 months, 12 days ago

I write Poetry... This is called So I Cry. I wrote it a couple of years ago but yeah I still like it.



And so I cry,

for every moment you held me in your arms,
every time you silenced me with your charms,
every breath we took every laugh we shared,
every moment that reminded me of how much you cared.

And i cry,

For all of the things I did wrong,
my heartache and pain has silenced my song,
for the loneliness that is all I now feel,
for the emptiness that is so overwhelmingly real.

I wish I was good enough to be the one for you,
wish I could be perfect and make your dreams come true.
No I am not skinny, I am not much to admire,
but I am the one who will be there long after we retire.

I will support you through any and everything.
If you start to fall I will be your wings.
I have two shoulders for you to cry
my love and loyalty will never die.

I know you do not want someone like me,
opinionated and stubborn and not so pretty,
I try to beautiful I really do,
but I know in myself I am not good enough for you.

And so i still cry now even more then before,
when I lose the nerve to knock on your door,
staining my cheeks and burning my eyes
now all I have left of me are these tears that I cry.

You made me so strong, you built who I am
But now you are gone I will start over again,
I have nothing left no beauty to show,
Will you ever regret, letting me go.

Unknown Cheeky - 16 years, 10 months, 17 days ago