Because this song, describes exactly how I feel about
so much and so many people right now. It feels just
so appropriate.




I Don't Care lyrics

I try to make it through my life
In my way
There's you
I try to make it through these lies
And thats all I do

Just don't deny it
Don't try to fight this
And deal with it
And its just part of it

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care
I don't care
Just go and leave this all behind
Cause I swear (I swear)
I don't care

I try to make you see my side
I always try to stay in line
But your eyes see right through
That's all they do
I'm getting buried in this place
I got no room you're in my face
Don't say anything just go away

If you were or dead or still alive
I don't care
I don't care
Just go and leave this all behind
Cause I swear (I swear)
I don't care

Stop changing everything
You won't be there for me
Stop changing everything
You won't be there for me

If you were or dead or still alive
I don't care
I don't care
Just go and leave this all behind
Cause I swear (I swear)
I don't care

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care
I don't care
I don't care
I don't care
Just go and leave this all behind
I don't care (I swear)
I don't care
At all
Unknown "My Panda" Neglected - 15 years, 7 months, 18 days ago

I was doing so good...getting better even to some extent found a happy place and was working with it. I guess karma figured out what was going on because here I go spiraling again. I was so close to being happy but I can't ever be happy I'm not allowed it. Once I genuinely gather it, it is stripped from me quickly and rather violently. Perhaps I am not meant to be awake as who I am. Perhaps this person who wishes for happiness is just some facade? Perhaps life is telling me I am that unlucky one, the one in a million who is never allowed happiness even in the company of friends. I hear there words and my heart shatters, my breath stops and I cry. And then the empty lifeless feeling takes over and I lay in bed knowing I should sleep. I lay there staring into the dark, envying it and all it's hollow emotional less life. I should give up and stop trying it just hurts more when I try. Just throw away this little glimpse of hope and light, tiny little shard and just accept my place.

This is me, Giving in, Giving up and Going down.
Unknown "My Panda" Neglected - 15 years, 10 months, 15 days ago

A little while ago...something amazing happened.... the bright burning light inside me....died.
That is all I'll post about it here.
Unknown "My Panda" Neglected - 15 years, 10 months, 26 days ago

My head feels like it's about to rip open.
My eyes are watering.
I can't smell a thing.

I feel like ripping my skin off my scalp and taking a hammer to the sweet white and red core.

and now I have work -..-
Unknown "My Panda" Neglected - 16 years, 2 days ago

Unknown "My Panda" Neglected - 16 years, 2 months, 11 days ago