Today should be a wonderful day.
It's the day 4 years ago an amazingly beautiful child was brought into the world.
One whos eyes would light up whenever anyone was around, her smile, that I'm convinced, could melt even the coldest heart.
A child thats irreplacable, unforgettable & whos presence in this world, has forever changed my life, even in her short life.
Nikole, I wish you were still here, Id give my life to have just one more hug & tell you how much I've always loved you, how much I will always love you.
Your GodMommy loves you Angel Child
I'm with you always
<3

softly baby angel wings
brush agianst my skin
i open my eyes to see her face
but then shes gone agian
i kno that shes still with me
her heart is on my back
i miss her more each day shes gone
& time cant heal that
all the "what ifs" i wonder
just can bring her back
so my only solice is in bed at nite
when i can feel her wings
softly brush agianst my skin
thats how she shows me
even tho i cant see her
she'll always be right here
-Erynn Nielson
Erynn Nielson "my erynnboo ♥" Playful - 16 years, 29 days ago

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gonna be OK

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gonna be OK

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: X2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Erynn Nielson "my erynnboo ♥" Playful - 16 years, 2 months, 17 days ago

So, someone won my auction
and their request was for me to pick the most meaningful tatt i have & explain
well.. this ones easy.. but its about a tatoo im getting in 25 days lol
its going to cover the heart with wings i already have on my lower back
its just gunna be a bigger & better version of it
w/ a scroll threw it saying "Im Loving Angels Instead." & my goddaughters name Nikole Lynn
this tattoo will be in rememberance of her, she was only 2 & 1/2 when God called her back to be an angel.. I still talk to her everynite & miss her more than I thought I could miss anyone.
I absoutly cannot wait to get this done for her.. in her honour.. she may not have been here for very long.. but the 2 & 1/2 years I got to spend with her.. will never be forgotten..
& i promise.. when the tatt is done on April 9th, I'll get pics up ASAP
its gunna take 5 hrs to do.. and its costen me over 400$.. so it should be good =)
..rest in peace my little angel
you'll never be forgotten

--heres the finished product.. still more work to do to finish it.. but it makes my heart happy to have this for her <3

--heres the final product
this ones for u baby girl
i miss you for eternity
Erynn Nielson "my erynnboo ♥" Playful - 16 years, 8 months, 14 days ago

She was a queen
Lost within a dream
Misconceived that he was fit to reign
Lies take victims
Separate them at the seams
Cause them to fall apart
Then move along to better things now

She
Wants to fall in love again
Don't you know that
He's
Satisfied to own her

No time permits to open up
When you've been hiding thoughts so strong
She's been holding out for an angel to come along
No reply from the sky
But she just keeps looking up
She just keeps looking up now

She
Wants to fall in love again
Don't you know that he
He's
Satisfied to own her

She'll never know love's true potential
Lost in the open wind
To his impatience
Never feeling they would fall apart
She let her feelings grow
To tears she'll never show now

She
Wants to fall in love again
Don't you know that he
He's
Satisfied to own her

You know he couldn't see
That she could be his everything
Bringing light to everything now
Oh
She just wants to
Fall in love again
She's broken like an angel
Erynn Nielson "my erynnboo ♥" Playful - 16 years, 8 months, 25 days ago

Who’s to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lost your self-esteem along the way
Yeah

Good god, you’re comin’ up with reasons
Good god, you’re draggin’ it out
Good god, it’s the changin’ of the seasons
I feel so raped
So follow me down

And just fake it, if you’re out of direction
Fake it, if you don’t belong here
Fake it, if you feel like infection
Whoa, you’re such a f**kin’ hypocrite

And you should know that the lies won’t hide your flaws
No sense in hiding all of yours
You gave up on your dreams along the way
Yeah

Good god, you’re comin’ up with reasons
Good god, you’re draggin’ it out
Good god, it’s the changin’ of the seasons
I feel so raped
So follow me down

And just fake it, if you’re out if direction
Fake it, if you don’t belong here
Fake it, if you feel like infection
Whoa, you’re such a f**kin’ hypocrite

Whoa, Whoa

I can fake it with the best of anyone
I can fake it with the best of ‘em all
I can fake it with the best of anyone
I can fake it all

Who’s to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lost you self-esteem along the way
Yeah

Good god, you’re comin’ up with reasons
Good god, you’re draggin’ it out
Good god, it’s the changin’ of the seasons
I feel so raped man
Follow me down

And just fake it, if you’re out of direction
Fake it, if you don’t belong here
Fake it, if you feel like infection
Whoa, you’re such a f**kin’ hypocrite
Erynn Nielson "my erynnboo ♥" Playful - 16 years, 9 months, 4 days ago