I hear the words the fireman's saying
"there's no way he could survive"
But all I hear myself repeating is
"he has to!". Then why am I still alive?
You were my reason for breathing,
my desire, wish and fulfillment.
But this time on earth is fleeting,
and now darling, you aren't in it.

What twist of fate, what wandering path
did we take to get us here?
Where two roads met, and then departed
My road alone is clear.

the policeman says those few same words
"there's no way he could have survived"
But darling, no, this just cannot be true!
Nobody would even try.
I'd have rushed in the doors to save you
But their hands held me like a vice
And forced me to stand there and witness
As an accident claimed your life.
Of these things I lost in the fire,
most materialistic by far,
was my ever burning desire
that encompassed all that we are.
And the snow fell around me
As I knelt by your marble bedside
whispering words too sweet
"it should have been me that died"

Unknown "mine!" Tired - 15 years, 9 months, 28 days ago

song quotes I've heard and loved today:
Anything plain can be lovely, anything loved can be lost
Maybe I lost my direction, what if our love is the cost?
Anyone perfect must be lying, anything easy has its cost
Anyone plain can be lovely, anyone loved can be lost
What if I lost my direction? What if I lost sense of time?
What if I nursed this infection? Maybe the worst is behind

And the same black line that was drawn on you
Was drawn on me
And now it's drawn me in
6th Avenue heartache

and for those that care, check this out: www.freewebs.com/fallenangel06
I'm updating it as we speak with a new one I wrote today.
Unknown "mine!" Tired - 16 years, 1 month, 21 days ago

appreciate life while you have it. . . please
because it really hurts to wake up one morning and realize that someone close to you didn't (wake up, that is).
= less than a year out of fucking high school! Yeah, I'm not exactly the world's best candidate for an optimist, but bleedin' christ, life gets better at some point!
Atleast, I keep telling myself that. . . it's too easy to give up elsewise. My friends keep telling me that I deserve to be happy for once, but what's happiness? I'm happy being me in a world that sees me differently, and that works for now.
(sorry if this creeps anyone out. . . I just wanted to tell people to enjoy what they've got, because lying to yourself that it'll last forever won't really work)
Unknown "mine!" Tired - 16 years, 2 months, 1 day ago

Right now I'm sitting here in my parents living room while my mom is at work at Jenny Craig, dad is at work at Lockheed, and my brother is in high school. All my friends are still in class because most Texas college's don't have spring break until next week when I wil be gone. But the point of this tale is that having the time off is nice to cuddle up with the animals. My parents have 2 Jack Russel Terriers and one hell of a cat (he was yelling at me earlier, so then he climbed up the couch and into my lap so Im now typing on my knees =P). I pulled the female up on my lap earlier on the couch because she isn't allowed on it and took a nap with her.
Point is: take the time to curl up with your favorite mammals, and always love your reptiles and amphibians. Tiger seems to like sleeping on me, as do the dogs. THESE are my reasons for loving coming home, because I don't have a dog in Moscow, and John's cat is a poor excuse for a pet.
Unknown "mine!" Tired - 16 years, 2 months, 12 days ago

There is something drastically wrong with being awake at 5:40 on a Saturday morning. Especially when this Saturday in particular is the first Saturday in Spring Break. Stupid Spokane being so damn long of a drive! ugh! But it'll be nice to see the family again, and to make a little extra money in the process.
I find out what my work schedule looks like tomorrow, so there may be another tale of the entire schedule so that you know how nuckin' futs I'll be about the whole week. Woo! haha
Unknown "mine!" Tired - 16 years, 2 months, 18 days ago