BISEXUALITY
What is it exactly about being a bisexual person that makes an immediate negative impression upon anyone you meet? I don’t understand what about that word makes one think that I am a sexual deviant, promiscuous slut, unbelievable liberal, dirty, unlawful human. Lol, I mean really I have touched a woman in an intimate way yes, but I have also grown to love a woman for her mind and body as one and as any other human could never do. I have held a woman when she needed it most; have caressed her in ways no one should ever be ashamed of.
Why should I have to be afraid of being sexual with a woman? The faux paw? Lol well I suppose if you’re religious in a Christian faith I am already screwed huh? Well its hell for me there…! uhh hmm lets see, bisexuals are dirty and different or something to that order of buzz words, is that correct? I suppose that comes from non acceptance in the religious field and the government arena, which is truly run by religion if we are being so unbearably honest at the moment.
I remember meeting this man in one of my classes in college and really enjoying his company and hanging out dating him often. We used to like to go watch movie in his car because his parents didn’t like having girls over at their house, they were extremely Christian, tehe… Well we began watching a few DVDs of different directors he liked and then we got to a man who was openly bisexual. Well he proceeded to warn me about their lead signer being bi and therefore looking a little strange but also that he was still a great director despite this. He mentioned this once again after the DVD had began and I asked him if it bothered him that the director was bisexual and wearing eye shadow. He said no he just had never had a friend who was bisexual and it was different. Then jokingly asked why are you bisexual? Well I thought about lying to him to be honest. I thought well that would be the easy way out since I know he is joking anyways and hell he is moving to San Francisco at the end of the quarter, which in itself is kind of ironic. But hey… what the hell!! I like this guy enough to tell him the truth. Yes I replied shyly after a reasonable pause. He laughed a bit as he proceeded to shut the fuck up, right quick I might add, lol. A bit uncomfortable are we? I wanted to say but that would have been far too sarcastic I suppose, damn… but instead choose compassion and asked why dose my sexual preference bother you? No he said he now had one bi friend and that I would be a new experience for him so he needed to think about some things. Probably what his parents would think and if they could just tell by looking at me that I was not worth the bend in their thoughts.
AHHH I was like a new project?! Huh? Was it that unheard of? I need a textbook or a pamphlet for people to understand me? So what I have the ability to love both a man and a woman equally. Lol I mean shit ill get a business card at that point and put a big fucking rainbow and penis on it lol, that’ll show them!! I guess ill never understand why it’s so hard to simply accept.
And there is a big difference between forgetting I said my preference and supporting me in it; while accepting me as another human being … I am not a disease. I will not change… it’s not gross or an imbalance in my hormones or caused by the rape I endured as a child. If you must label me then at least speak truth, I can love more unconditionally than most others in this judgmental world. You are not better than me and I am no better than anyone else. We are different and it’s beautiful and worth celebrating and freeing up our minds to. Don’t live with just the view out of your window, go outside and look around see other peoples views for once; look through other windows and see their beauty! Choose to live!!!
I apologize if this was a bit much for some people, i was upset when i wrote it and may have said some things that were not afair and i apologize for that, but i am what i am and it hurts to see others like me outcast for such callous disapproval.***
Unknown "Stranger Danger" Peaceful
- 16 years, 7 months, 23 days ago
