I have become stagnent in my faith and it would seem that I need to let go of some baggage that's gotten quite "heavy" recently. My life has not been....easy. (yea..lets just leave it at that.) Its time to let go. Its time to "let go and let god" as they say...but how. How do we trust the Gods to be there for us, to support us and love us in times of trouble and turmoil. I can't feel them and I need to let them in...but I"m scared. Like...too scared. Like..obserdly scared. Suggestions? Help?
Sara Uncertain - 16 years, 2 months, 12 days ago

What is trust? What is it made of? What does it look like? What does it sound like? Can I touch it? Can I smell it? How will I know when I have it..or have given it?
Sara Uncertain - 16 years, 2 months, 12 days ago

Was just IMing with the gf and it left me quite emotionally raw. I just...I don't even know what to do or where to turn or how to feel. I normally put all this kind of stuff on my diary, but that site is down for...no one knows how long! I have to get it out somehow so..here we go...I guess.
I don't know where to start...I don't know how to get myself out of this place. Everyone says "trust God(s) but how do you just let your gaurd down and trust that which you feel has failed you so very often. Gf says that its not the Gods that failed me, its humans...yet Im suppose to trust them too!? Where to start...and how to get there. I feel so lost....so very very lost. I don't trust anyone. Not even myself. I feel like if I let go...it will all fall apart. Yet...its all fall apart with me holding on so tightly too. So its not really working...so I should probably try something else...ie: trust. Now to figure out how....
Sara Uncertain - 16 years, 2 months, 12 days ago

I am a birth junkie. I LOVE the process of birth. Going in...a woman is a woman..strong, powerful but unsure and excited. At the end..not only is she a woman, but she's also a mother. In a few short hours (or long hours..depending!) she's changed, altered and never will be the same.
I'm working on my certification to be a doula. Which is a birth assistant. My job is non medical birth support. I'm there to facilitate that change, and most often help mothers stay with their desires for natural births. Making suggestions, massaging, getting ice and helping dad/birth partner feel comfortable and meet his/her goals involving the birth.
I bring this up because one of my favorite online pals has gone into labor. She's asked me to be her long distance doula, and I really hope she calls! She's got many challenges ahead of her because of past birth experiences but...she can do it. I know she can. Women are powerful, wonderful and amazing creatures. Respect your local mamas!!!
Sara Uncertain - 16 years, 2 months, 27 days ago

Personally I didn't believe this at all. So I looked into it..and shockingly, this IS happening in the free country of America! Please...sign this if you value your rights or the rights of women in your lives.
Hi,

I had to share something with you. Can you imagine living in a place where birth control is considered an "abortion" and health insurers won't cover it? Where even rape victims are denied emergency contraception?

It seems unbelievable, but the Bush Administration is quietly trying to redefine "abortion" to include birth control. The Houston Chronicle says this could wipe out dozens of state laws that protect women's reproductive freedom and protect rape victims. And this proposed "rule change" doesn't need congressional approval.

I just signed a message to Health and Human Services Secretary Mike Leavitt, whose department is considering this rule change, telling him: "Contraception is NOT abortion." Can you add your voice to this cause? Click here to sign the message: http://pol.moveon.org/contraception/?r_by=-6967718-u1hRvMx&rc=paste

Thanks!
Sara Uncertain - 16 years, 2 months, 28 days ago