already the best year ever! yesterday my baby met with his manager to see if he could get a transfer to texas and his mangaer said the faster he gets to texas the faster he can get a job! soooo he is moving in with me either wednesday or thursday depending on how the drive goes!!! I am sooo excited!!
I love you Shawn :) Amanda Loving
- 14 years, 3 months, 27 days ago
so i just wanted to say that i found the love of my life. Shawn Flanagan. i met him on here in april and didnt expect much to come of it at the time. But since then i have gotten to know him as the sweetest, most caring, and passionate person that I have ever met.
I finally got to meet him in person on my trip last week (7-11) and now we cant stand to be apart. He is coming to see me in texas this week and soon one or the other of us will move so that we can be together.
Shawn I love you so much! And to all of my other friends on here dont give up you will find someone wonderful too! <33 Amanda Loving
- 14 years, 4 months, 12 days ago
so this is gonna be emo. i apologize.
I have come to realize that this whole talking to people online thing is tricky. Not recently I have known for a while. But it affects me more and more. ya know? Example I just bought a plane ticket. yup. And I am psyched actually. Totally Excited! I am going to see my pet. That one up there "My Wolff, My luv"
Anyways I realized it is tricky cause, when you talk to someone on here or anywhere you have to realize that they are talking to other people on here and that they are probably talking to people not on the internet. Some probably even have almost a double life cause they want to talk to their people on here and off of here and they dont want the two to mix. Or maybe thats not the case but it feels like it.
On the other hand there are people like me. I meet people on here and other places online and when I talk to them alot I feel they are important enough to tell oher people about them. I have toldmy best friends and sisters all about people on here. Brandon, Darrin, Rick, Billy (not my pet billy sorry), and Shawn. All of you. Because you are all important to me. i am not afraid of combining these two groups. Online/Offine. I dont care what my friends will think of me. I mean yes parents are a little delicate. They are afraid of boogies monsters on the internet. But you know what I mean
...... ya know i will be honest i was thinking.. i guess I tell all of my girlfriends about everyone I talk to but not so much my guyfriends... hmmm this is tricky see? I am thinking outloud now. or in text on a screen... i have told my best friend and ex jacob about shawn. And I mention to my other ex and best friend matt that i was going to see my friend in New hampshire. hmmm i guess I know that not all my friends would understand the talking to people online thing. And my best friends wont care reguardless. So I guess thats why I will actually call them up and tell them about these great people. Everyone else is I guess a need to know basis. I would tell anyone who asked.
So yea it hurts when people I talk to dont want other people to know that they are talking to me. And i try not to think about it and I try not to take it personally but it does hurt. Especially when I develope real feelings for these people.
I mean I get it. I am not your girlfriend. But ya know if you do have a girlfriend I wonder if she knows your talking to me like that. ya know what I mean?
And again I am not your girlfriend..... and niether is that other girl or whoever else. So yea you can talk to however many girls you want to but dont lie to about it. I am not stupid. I will gladly tell you my dating history and about every single person I am talking to.... when the time comes....
I think its shitty that i have come into a couple of situations where the guy doesnt want his other hp gf or real like girl or whoever to know about me. So they block me on hp "accidently" or wont add me on facebook or add me and then delete me "accidently" oops... lol yea right.
yea I know its just facebook or whatever but its the priniciple. you are hiding me from someone or someone from me.
like I said, I am not your girlfriend. I get it. So if you are talking to someone else fine. You guys who do this need to grow up.
Sooo yea. i wasnt really trying to lash out at anyone person. i wanted to get this out there for the sake of my past present and future..
lol i think it is funny that their are a bunch of people on here w pictures of nothing but their cleavage! i guess they have an ugly face?? sad. Amanda Loving
- 14 years, 7 months, 1 day ago
It is a sad day when one realizes that they can understand a taking back suday song... for me it is atleast lol.
I went to a party on saturday and at the end when everyone was dispersing someone played this on rock band and every person in the room was singing it. And i realized that ever single person at that party was suffering from this same type of heartache... I have the most screwed up group of friends ever lol. <3
You've got this new head filled up with smoke I've got my veins all tangled close To the jukebox bars you frequent The safest place to hide A long night spent with your most obvious weaknesses You start shaking at the thought You are everything I want 'Cause you are everything I'm not
And we lay, we lay together just not Too close, too close (How close is close enough?) We lay, we lay together just not Too close, too close
I just wanna break you down so badly While I trip over everything you say I just wanna break you down so badly In the worst way
My inarticulate store bought hangover hobby kit In talks, it says, 'You, oh, you are so cool.' Scissor-shaped across the bed You are red, violent red You hollow out my hungry eyes You hollow out my hungry eyes
And we lay, we lay together just not Too close, too close (How close is close enough?) We lay, we lay together just not Too close, too close
I just wanna break you down so badly Well I trip over everything you say Well I just wanna break you down so badly In the worst way
I'm gonna make damn sure that you can't ever leave No, you won't ever get too far from me You won't ever get too far from me I'll make damn sure that you can't ever leave No, you won't ever get too far from me You won't ever get too far from me You won't ever get too far from me You won't ever get too far...
