I have no time for anything besides school anymore. I take a few breaks, time to play some tennis, or go to the mall, but I haven't written a new chapter to my fanfic, I haven't worked on my story since Christmas, and the only art I do now is on lined paper in my various note books for my classes.

Its kinda sad, but I have also stopped writing in my diary. As I let the days go by I could feel them slipping away from me. I used to feel as if I were letting important memories slip away, but I was so anal about getting them written down that I had stopped taking the time to enjoy them. In a way I'm glad I've stopped, but in a way I'm not. It's strange, I can't understand why it was so important anymore, all I knew when I was writing the most mundane details of my life down for whomever to read, it felt as if my life finally meant something. Now that it does to more then just my diary (thank you Matt my love) I feel as if there is no need for me to write in a diary anymore.

I feel as if the most important things are already there and the rest is already in my heart.
Unknown "Raaach! mine!" Lonely - 16 years, 1 month, 2 days ago

Wow, so I decided to finally open a shop. its ok so far, but I really don't have any clue how to get more buisness, so I would love it if anyone took the time to tell me their favorite and least favorite Item. That would be great! I'll keep taking out the least bought items and replacing them until I'm sure I have a good store of items until people start telling me what they wanna see.
Unknown "Raaach! mine!" Lonely - 16 years, 1 month, 15 days ago

Man, have you ever just had one of those days? I mean, nothing extremely bad happens and almost everything seems to go ok, you haven't done any strenuous activities, but you are just tired. You feel like you ran a marathon and then cried for an hour, that lazy tired where you just don't want to to anything but watch TV or read a book.

Under normal circumstances that is exactly what I would do, but after finishing one of the papers I had to do, I just got assigned another one that is diue on Sunday. This Sunday. And I still have the other paper, the ten page one, that has about a page and a half done on it. Lovely.

I managed to get the teacher that just assigned the new paper to push back the due date two or three days, so I have a little more time for that one, but I still have to write about 14 or 15 pages, 9 more due Friday and the other 5 or 6 due on Tuesday. I have to do work, but I feel so completely exhausted all I want to do is lay on the bed and watch stupid movies.

I'm not normally a depressing person, but I feel like I'm depressed even though there is no reason for it. I'm going to ignore it and hope it goes away. All I want to do is sleep. Oh well. I have to do at least a page or two of work before I go to bed. Normally that wouldn't be so hard, but I really don't have the motivation. I just want to sleep.
Unknown "Raaach! mine!" Lonely - 16 years, 1 month, 19 days ago

Work sucks. I'm not talking about work as in a job or something, but homework, reports and such. I don't mind doing them, but they can be so frustrating when I don't want to do them or can't think of how to start them. Starting them is the hard part, finishing them can be a bitch too though.

Meh, I guess I'm just in one of those moods. I finished one report and just don't want to start the next. Oh well. Gotta get back to brain storming.
Unknown "Raaach! mine!" Lonely - 16 years, 1 month, 23 days ago

I don't know about everyone else but I HATE people who date long distance over the internet, claim to love tghe person they are dating even though they've never met, and insist the relationship will work out.

Unfortunately I have a friend who does this and although she's a good friend I think she's incredibly stupid for getting emotionally involved with words typed on a screen. The only way to know you love a person is to meet them face to face, talk to them face to face and date them like a normal person. You fall in live with a computer screen and the words written on it and you could be falling in love with a fake personality created by some weirdo or pedifile or some sick bastard hoping to lure you out in order to steal something from you, possibly your life.

Here's a good piece of advice to those who do internet dating. Don't EVER meet someone from over the internet without being with a friend and in a public place in broad day light where there are plenty of people around.

Oh, and don't fall in love with a computer screen. I know to some out there it seems like you will never find the "one" and that there is no one in the area "for you" but do yourself a favor and don't get attached to some stranger over the internet. My friend I mentioned earlier went to meet some teen age guy from over the internet and almost never came home. Its not safe.

Ok I'm done ranting. You can post responses to this if you would like, I have no problem if you don't see eye to eye with me.
Unknown "Raaach! mine!" Lonely - 16 years, 1 month, 29 days ago