?if i need you, would you come to me?
would you come to me, to ease my pain?"
..........i guess the answer is no

Unknown "Fauxcephus" Sad - 16 years, 2 months, 28 days ago

I love the lyrics to this song.....


People say she's only in my head
Its gonna take time but I'll forget
They say I need to get on with my life
But they don't realize

Is when your dialing 6 numbers just to hang up the phone.
Driving cross town just to see if she's home.
Waking a friend in the dead of night, just to hear 'em say it's gonna be alright.
When your finding things to do not to fall asleep cuz you know she'll be there in your dreams.
Thats when she's
more than a memory

Took a match to everything she ever wrote
Watched her words go up in smoke
Tore all the pictures off the wall
But that aint helping me at all.

Cuz when your talking out loud and nobody's there
You look like hell and you just don't care
Drinking more than you've ever drank
Sinking down lower than you've ever sank
When you find yourself falling down upon your knees, praying to God, begging him PLEASE
That's when she's
More than a Memory

She's more
She's more

Cuz when your dialing her number just to hang up the phone
Driving cross town just to see if she's home
waking a friend in the dead of night, just to hear 'em say it's gonna be alright
When our finding things to do not to fall asleep cuz you know she'll be waiting in your dreams
That's when she's
More than a Memory

People say she's only in my head
Its gonna take time but I'll forget
Unknown "Fauxcephus" Sad - 16 years, 3 months, 2 days ago

a lovely song....

Unknown "Fauxcephus" Sad - 16 years, 3 months, 2 days ago

Last night I went to the Rodney Akins, Brooks & Dun and ZZ Top Concert. Had a great time and got to meet Rodney Akins. He signed my hat and took a picture with me :)




Unknown "Fauxcephus" Sad - 16 years, 3 months, 3 days ago

"they same some things in our lives are best forgotten,
i say those are things that make you who you are"

That is a line from a country singer named Bob Wayne.

What if the things that make you who you are, are all bad?

I have been having a rough week. I tend to overthink things. I have been reliving a lot of things in my head. conversations, text messages, letters, mix cd's given to me. It is driving me nuts. I believe its the little things in life that make the biggest impact. Saying something wrong or making a bad decison. I am tryting so hard to figure things out and am coming up empty. I tend to not be the happiest person for the past couple years. I am good at hiding it though.
The past few months I did not have to hide anything. I was really happy and looking forward to things. I felt like for a split second I got to look behind the curtain and see how it is supposed to be. Without a warning though, the curtain was pulled shut and I was back to the same old ways.
I wish I knew how to be happy. I am working on it but it doesn't seem to be coming. I always try to be a good person, but everytime I get handed a shit deal I think is it really worth it? I try to be good to everyone and give all I can and it seems it's for nothing. After things go bad I tell myself I am done caring, that I am only going to look out for myself from now on but it never seems to happen. I like making people happy and going the extra mile. I have a feeling though, one day I will stop caring and that is a person I don't want to be.

I am talking about lots of things in my life. These past couple weeks though I have had a couple bad things happen. One is affecting me more than the other but still the same having two things hit you makes it even harder. You really start to realize who your real friends are as you go through life and have problems. I must admit I am a little disappointed in some of my so called "friends" I guess that is a silver linging in a bad situation, you know who you can count on and who you can't.
I am starting to wonder if there is no such thing as a happy life for certai people, just happy moments. Maybe that is it. You just need to live in those moments. I don't know.

Oh well....
Unknown "Fauxcephus" Sad - 16 years, 3 months, 21 days ago