Slow breathing
Slumber under the careful watch of someone she trusts with her life
She hears a zipper and feels a cold hand press against her
Her eyes open up and she watches as he tries to take her barriers off
Tears swell up and her throat threatens to close up as she screams words at him
She grabs the clothes he threw on the floor
And runs past his family who passes judgement
The burning tears don't help her sinking heart as she runs to the last person she trusts
With her wounded heart
With her wounded life.....
Thats right its time for another rant
For all of you who don't know already get your shocked faces on I'm a virgin BIG DEAL
I'm breathing
I'm able to eat
I can go out with people and be normal
Being a virgin isn't some disease that needs to be cured right on the spot right there or you will perish after the age of 16 well there goes that stupid theory of yours I'm 19 so whats your point?
First of all I'm tired of people acting so shocked seriously its not me telling you I'm dying its a personal choice helped out by a past. Just because I'm somewhat attractive or whatever it is you call me doesn't mean I need to PUT OUT. Yes I may be a bitch but its only cause you effing assume that I WANT you I NEED you to help me out. I don't need ANYONE, except the people who truly understand me and my past and its stories.
I don't care how many times you hit on me, I'm not going to strip and put my body out there for you to see, thats choice don't like it? keep moving on because no matter how many times you call me a skank or whore or anything to try to get me so depressed that I will bow to your every word or command. Two words to that : FUCK THAT.
K I'm so tired of some people if I stop talking to you its ON PURPOSE I don't care if you call me a bitch go ahead and join the hoards of people. You are the reasons why I am this way I am this way to protect myself from the groups of assholes that I'm around all day everyday....
And this b.s. about I love you...that is not the three words that make me want you, yes I love you to but I don't want to love all of you SORRY. and the fact that you persist with the I love you's and the sorry's makes me feel disgust towards you :}
So to all who take this as a shock don't even bother talking to me I'm a virgin and could care less I want to lose my V card to someone who doesn't pressure me or think saying three words will be their pass, to someone who CARES past a computer screen.
K THANKS BAI
~<3 Care
Carezilla "c" Ferocious
- 15 years, 10 months, 29 days ago