I see you walking
Walking away from me
I try so desperately
To catch your attention
So you can see me
See me as I am
I don't hate you
I don't hate him
Yet you pretend we didn't happen
You walk away
You keep walking
Nothing I could ever hope to do
Nothing could get you to turn around
I stand here watching
As you walk away
I knew I would always be alone
I always am
You saw me as I was
You saw everything I gave
Everything I would continue to give
Still, in the evening light
My one shining star in this darkness
You are walking away
The darkness falls on me now
I am accustomed to its cold embrace
Almost a comfort in the dark
I miss the warmth of your light
I know though, that I can't stop you
All I ask, if you wont turn around
Please, run
Garrett McWilliams "My Monkey!" Frisky - 13 years, 11 months, 18 days ago

They say to forgive and forget, treat others as you would yourself.

I myself am one who try's very hard to practice both, but I have a problem. Problem being that although I can forgive and forget, and treat others nicely, I'm unable to do the same for me. I cannot ever seem to forget any little thing I have ever done wrong. It doesn't matter how minor, it doesn't even matter if I have been forgiven for the "offending" crime. I'd be lieing if I said it was not something I struggle with on a daily basis.

Some people pick up on it. Not this "condition" I have, but rather my attitude. They say it seems like I'm holding something back, all the time. Bits and pieces of the whole story, it's constantly incomplete. I hate to admit a mistake, but I will apologize when I'm wrong. I've once read that "You can know a scorpio for years and never really know them". I guess for me that's all too real. The only justifiable cause I've ever had for my half lies is that I'm afraid to let people in. You'd understand if you have been betrayed as many times as I have, by as many important people.
Garrett McWilliams "My Monkey!" Frisky - 14 years, 5 months, 14 days ago

It hits like a brick to the face
Taking and giving too fast now
Why does it happen, no one knows
It's not something to explain away
Too much for explanation or rationalization
It is beyond such things, always has been
So don't ask why
Don't fight the feeling
It will always feel right
Even if it's wrong
You wont know that now
You will only know if it leaves you
But wisdom is a gift
Wisdom will know it's still there
Or if it has left
No man is above the influence
And only those who the embrace has left
Only they can no longer feel it
They refuse to let it back in their lives
They fight the pull, and it hollows them
But even at the end of life
One can still feel it
Through all the hate and pain, you know it's true
It's always true, and beautiful
The embrace is warm, and it heals all
I guess I'm just trying to say
I'm falling again, it feels good
Garrett McWilliams "My Monkey!" Frisky - 14 years, 5 months, 16 days ago

It broke, and the resistance fell
What could I do to stop it?
Like waves upon the cliff side
I had no choice but to crumble
It was not a war I could win
The attack was much too strong now
Much too strong.
Forgive me for falling
I fought until I had nothing left
I died on the field that day
All that was left, all that you knew
It was a corpse.
The end came much too late
The battle already lost
I don't know why I fought so long
It must be because I loved you.
Garrett McWilliams "My Monkey!" Frisky - 14 years, 7 months, 27 days ago

Prayer to a forsaken deity.

Oh lord, can't you see what has become
See that which has happened before?
It will come to pass again, it must be stopped.
Man is going away from you,
He uses science to explain that which you are.
The faithful are torn against themselves,
The wolves have become the sheep.
The righteous have become the damned,
They sin now in your name.
The truth that you have spoke,
It has been changed and distorted.
Which truth is true, when there are so many?
Or is the truth buried in a sea of lies?
Tell me lord, with so many heavens,
Which of those are the hells?
Or do I seek to find something that has passed.
For I see it now, it is coming.
The end of the truth and the lies.
They will all be buried in the same tomb.
Who then will tell that which is right from wrong?
Lord, your voice is so sweet, but so distant.
Your word has been replaced with mans.
You replaced the false gods,
Your intervention saved the man you made.
The same man you created will become you,
And like you do now, he will die.
Garrett McWilliams "My Monkey!" Frisky - 16 years, 12 days ago