Yes... I know... ages since my last update :(

Been really really busy... so many thing happening... 2008 has definitely proven to be the most life defining year of my life. First things first though... a few updates on what's been happening to me.

First of all, I'm looking for a new job. Yes I know, I've just joined and it does pains me to leave without "finishing the job" but the office is relocating and the new location isn't convenient to me. The office is moving this Friday which will mean I'll have to work from the new office for the time being. But every day I'm there will probably increase my determination to leave :P

Secondly I'm back single again... haha... bet you didn't even know I wasn't single :P Anyway the relationship has run its course and things just didn't work out between the two of us. It wasn't the best of splits but we're not enemies so I guess I should be grateful for that. I would be lying if I said that I wasn't sad... obviously falling in love then having to split will be traumatic for most of us. But I don't know, perhaps because I kinda had a feeling it won't work out even from the start... perhaps for other reasons unknown... in a way I am glad I'm single again. ^_^

So in summary... looking for a new job and looking for... hehe... no... just joking... NOT looking for a new girlfriend :)

C'est la vie!
Anuar Jamlus Peppy - 16 years, 4 months, 2 days ago

Got one of my best friends back today. And I'm ecstatic :)
Anuar Jamlus Peppy - 16 years, 5 months, 27 days ago

I've just realised that it's been 17 days since my last tale. It's not that I don't have anything to write about. Far from it. But I do believe that I've slowly grown a little tired of writing about my not so great life. It's becoming a little too familiar and if it's boring me, I can't imagine how bored you all are feeling when reading it.

When I first started writing the tales it was meant to be as a medium for me to open up and be able to generate positive vibes that I can take to my real life. Instead the reverse has happened and to be honest there can't be that many people eager to read about the miserable life of someone whom they hardly know.

So I'm promising myself now that any future tales will be one that serves its intended purpose. That or no tale at all... ^_^
Anuar Jamlus Peppy - 16 years, 5 months, 29 days ago

I'm annoyed. Not at anyone else though. Just myself. Why? Because I let other people sweet talk me into doing things that I don't really want to do. Am I a pushover? No. But I do bend over backwards sometimes in my attempts to make the people that I care about happy. I wished I could say no. But most of the time saying no is hard. Yet when the deed is done I end up feeling very frustrated and dejected. And I can't blame anyone other than myself for ending up this way.

Not really sure what I can do about it. I always tell myself that'll be the last time I cater to the whims and fancies of other people. I can manage it for a few days, perhaps even a couple of weeks. But eventually I will relent and the cycle will start all over again.

Not sure how I'll do it... but I do know that I do have to do it... even if it means disappointing the very people I care about.
Anuar Jamlus Peppy - 16 years, 6 months, 17 days ago

Like some other people I know, I have a tendency to use songs to help me deal with whatever emotions that I'm feeling at any moment in time. Whether it's a fast beat song to match my cheerfulness or a beautifully lyrical track that touches the heart, there always seems to be a song that I can relate to.

With that in mind, Leona Lewis' 4th track from her first album sums up quite closely my current thoughts. It's a really nice song even if it didn't have anything to do with me and I'm sure you'll enjoy it as much as I do :)

http://youtube.com/watch?v=VrNoDUblAtE
Anuar Jamlus Peppy - 16 years, 6 months, 25 days ago