"Don't forget that I cannot see myself. My role is limited to being the one who looks in the mirror."
Jacques Rigaut
About you:
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life... You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love. I hate love.
Rose Walker
I am your master See your heart And of this burning heart Your heart She trembling Obediently eats. Weeping, I saw him then depart from me.
Joy is converted To bitterest tears
I am in peace My heart I am in peace See my heart Chris Hidaka"My BeLoved"Stay with Me, just a little
- 15 years, 5 months, 9 days ago
People have born and died inside a rock shelter longer than anyone can remember. But now it's time, tells a scripture that is written on metal plates, that only few are able to read.
Daylight - what is that? Echo of stone walls is more familiar than a bird song, and not everyone wants to break the door seal. Behind that is a death glowing as a light, they say.
One after another torches rise, and people come closer to the doorway. They have made their decision. And nobody knows if the sunrise is the first or last of humankind.
What else can they do but dance?
*** Thank you Elise! Chris Hidaka"My BeLoved"Stay with Me, just a little
- 15 years, 5 months, 11 days ago
You look so fine I want to break your heart And give you mine You´re taking me over It´s so insane You´ve got me tethered And chained I hear your name And I´m falling over
I´m not like all the other girls I can´t take it like the other girls I won´t share it like the other girls That you used to know You look so fine
Knocked down Cried out Been down just to find out I´m through bleeding for u
I´m open wide I want to take you home We´ll waste some time You´re the only one for me You look so fine I´m like the desert tonight Leave her behind If you want to show me
I´m not like all the other girls I won´t take it like the other girls I won´t fake it like the other girls That you used to know
You´re taking me over Over and over I´m falling over Over and Over
Drown in me One more time Hide inside me tonight Do what you Want to do Just pretend We get a happy end Let me know Let it show Ending with Letting go Ending with Letting go Ending with Letting go Let´s pretend Happy end Let´s pretend Happy end Chris Hidaka"My BeLoved"Stay with Me, just a little
- 15 years, 5 months, 22 days ago
Stand Inside Your Love
You and me Meant to be Immutable Impossible It's destiny Pure lunacy Incalculable Insufferable But for the last time You're everything that I want and ask for You're all that I'd dreamed Who wouldn't be the one you love Who wouldn't stand inside your love Protected and the lover of A pure soul and beautiful you Don't understand Don't feel me now I will breathe For the both of us Travel the world Traverse the skies Your home is here Within my heart And for the first time I feel as though I am reborn In my mind Recast as child and mystic sage Who wouldn't be the one you love Who wouldn't stand inside your love And for the first time I'm telling you how much I need and bleed for Your every move and waking sound In my time I'll wrap my wire around your heart and your mind You're mine forever now Who wouldn't be the one you love and live for Who wouldn't stand inside your love and die for Who wouldn't be the one you love Chris Hidaka"My BeLoved"Stay with Me, just a little
- 15 years, 5 months, 25 days ago
