Well everybody it is late monday night well it is tuesday moring about 0245 and Im still awake. There is alot of restlessness for I am going to be back home in the states finally and with my most prized peaple my wonderful wife and kids. It seems that there is always that unsure and un easy feeling about going home after being gone for this long you are not really sure of what to exspect or if there are changes that you dont know how to act or react to. I feel that I have changed some and I know that the ones around have to. Will we still get along is the same love still there or is this the beginning to an end? I wish there was a little ball that one could look into and not predict the future but give a slight insight into what to exspect. There is going to be some readjustment and adversity to over come but it is the hardest when it is at home where you have always felt that you are safe form things around you but when it is behind that door you really start to get uneasy. Well I guess that I will just have to wait and see what is going to happend. You can always say that you are gonna be there but it is not until you are there and trying to fit back into someones life that know you and knows how you are before and your unsure if they are gonna want you to be there anymore for what ever reason. They have been on there own for long enough that they may not need you around and Im not saying that they were only around before because they couldnt do it but where unsure they could but now having been given the time to see do they want what they had or what they have now?

I guess in my own defence I know that I have changed and I know that she still loves me well she says she does and I have never known her to lie about that. So my sweet I love you without any bounds and with know uncertiney that I will always charish the love that I have for you always.
Unknown "Nibbles" Working on a bad day - 16 years, 1 month, 10 days ago

OK lets try this again it seems that if you were to get shit on by someone then you more than likely did some thing to them but think about it the closest to you usally get shit on by you cause they are so close and you just go off on them because they have always listened before. Think next time you go and go off on someone close because they probly dont deserve it and you are just having a bad day and they dont care spouses are the worst ones.
Unknown "Nibbles" Working on a bad day - 16 years, 3 months, 26 days ago

Well to all of you who know my wife Mariah I dont see her winning this one because she will put it on in the morning befor evan coming out of the tent I know her she cant do anything with out makeup well Love sorry but you know... I have this feeling deep down in my stomach that all is not good I dont know what it is but there is something do you ever get that well to all of you ill be back in a afew
Unknown "Nibbles" Working on a bad day - 16 years, 4 months, 29 days ago

I was thinking last night when I was well how would you say it pissed about really nothing what happend was done and when I was done it it got me a little more worked up that we didnt end the conversationon a good note then I tried to go to sleep and that didnt work so I guess the moral of the story is that if your mad about something or someone you should talk to them it helps. I LOVE YOU RIA
Unknown "Nibbles" Working on a bad day - 16 years, 5 months, 11 days ago

When you sit down and think about how much you trust in peaple it should scare the HELL out of you. Think every time you drive down the road you trusting somebody the only thing that is keeping them on there side of the road is there willness to live too.Or better yet your spouse you trust them with everything your kids, home, you, your heart and lets not forget about the least thought of thing because it is apart of life your money. Now so let me say this not everybody falls in to this some do and some don't but we know who we are. You have to trust everybody a little if you dont you wouldnt be around anymore. I think and this is me but the one that get you the worst are those closest to you. I Love my wife would do anything for her but there are times when she can push me and im sure it is the same way for most what do you do? You cnt kill them thats not right (even at the time you would like to) you can be mad at them but for how long a minute, hour, day,week who knows but the worst thing is to keep bringing it up.It only seems to keep you and her mad at one another trust me and when there the one that you relay on for most things in life and you do (think about it everything you do is for, about or with them) has an effect on them from getting fired at work cuz you cant keep your mouth shut or getting the kids another dog who they are the one who has to take them out. I dont know what the answear is you figure it out and let me know PLEASE it might help everyone out knowing. Well i think that I have vented for today enough. Yall have a good one
Unknown "Nibbles" Working on a bad day - 16 years, 5 months, 12 days ago