i have no idea why the hell i'm "unknown" or why human pets disappeared off my facebook. no doubt the two things are related. i searched for it on fb, and it's like... nonexistant. i'm tired of facebook sucking.
meggie "tristessa" Sparkling - 15 years, 9 months, 27 days ago

i just wish someone would fix me.
i can't seem to do it myself.
meggie "tristessa" Sparkling - 15 years, 10 months, 2 days ago

i'm completely and totally stuck. confused. don't know what to do.
no...idea.
meggie "tristessa" Sparkling - 15 years, 10 months, 12 days ago

i've decided that it's time to stop letting my mood- my sky high anxiety- be dictated by other people. my "happiness" can no longer be dependent on other people, especially not when my perception is so skewed. i assume the worst. i assume people don't like me. i assume people are deceiving me. it's getting close to serious paranoia. i wasn't always like this... but i supposed i learned over the last year or so. i keep lashing out at someone important to me, when i feel like he's being deceptive at all. he keeps coming back to explain, and i see how paranoid i've become, and end up apologizing. even still- i find myself unable to trust him and feel like i'm always being screwed. i keep it in, because i know if i'm always lashing out at him and accusing him he'll get tired of it. but internally it's still killing me. my jaw's always locking up, my head always hurts, my shoulders are like rocks... so i have to stop. i can't change the behaviour of others... but i can control how i react and respond, and that has to change. i DON'T want to cut him out of my life; rather i want to improve myself to be able to deal with these very every day feelings.
meggie "tristessa" Sparkling - 15 years, 10 months, 24 days ago

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