you hunt me down
down where I lay
your unseen eyes crawl across my skin
I tumble through the dark to your dinner plate
no air rushes by
you sicken me as I lay, motionless

there you sit ontop of my prone form
there and I scream silently through a closed mouth
my blood boils and my muscles ache
a tear in my half open eye, my mouth dries
I can't writhe I can't cry I can't run

I'm helpless, hopeless

a faceless grin in the night

I shift lazily and roll over
you're gone again
my heart rises back to its home
you'll be back tomorrow to haunt me again
Tall Bastard James "Bastardo" Dazed - 15 years, 3 months, 16 days ago

Who do you see in the mirror?

Truth is I don't know who I see. It's a familiar face, the same face that's been there. But the eyes I look out of aren't the same ones I see reflected back at me, not lately. And so I stand and stare, fake a smile and stifle a laugh.
Tall Bastard James "Bastardo" Dazed - 15 years, 3 months, 23 days ago

For my owner :P
Tall Bastard James "Bastardo" Dazed - 15 years, 4 months, 19 days ago

Tall Bastard James "Bastardo" Dazed - 15 years, 5 months, 21 days ago

So things don't go so well... Why get mad? I don't know.. it doesn't really help, it's just what happens sometimes. Can't help but feel like all this anger is a waste of energy that could be put to use on making things better, but even at the same time I just don't know that I want to be anything but .. angry.
Tall Bastard James "Bastardo" Dazed - 15 years, 5 months, 22 days ago