to meditate
i actually just start with closing my eyes in the middle of the day and breathing.
if i seem to be good to go i'll continue, time permitting.
i put my consciousness where ever i focus,
i am in my body i am in my head,
i travel to all the nine gates.
i pretend my head is a giant room and my sense of self is a pinpoint inside it.
from there i meditate
your body movements affect blood flow through your thoughts and cause interference
i focus on sensing above all the inner noise.
kinda like trying to listen to a quiet tv in a noisy room.
after about 40 minutes it all starts to settle and i just receive stuff
this is where my intent determines what pops into my head.
all that focusing should be for just one thing at a time
i usually try to see the future, or events elsewhere in peoples minds in the world
it's hard to believe if its real.
but funny coincidences seem to happen so i think theres some worth to intent
one time i sat in a park quietly on a hillside with the sun setting to my back and after 2 hours i felt recharged and i looked up to the clouds and there seemed to be a triple triangular spiral pattern above me. i dont think clouds normally do that.
anyways, i just pay attention to the faint changes in light and darkness inside my eyelids. after a while the pulsing of my blood seems to make a pattern, kalidascope peacock feathers, no colors just the pattern, and then collapsing rings, the ring is my blood pumping thru my lense i bet, but its a pretty neat and relaxing pattern.
then after i get desensitized to that as well, i start to see things.
i guess at this point its daydreaming. but maybe we were made to see things with eyes closed as a part of spiritual evolution. i like to go with it. then i see people i've never seen before and with such detail as if i was them looking in a mirror. or i've jumped into their body and am looking thru their eyes. i then find it not surprising when i see that person later in the week. i don't know names or anything but sometimes weird things happen...

Traugstenthorn "Wave" Neglected - 16 years, 2 months, 18 days ago

oh i've thought of words to say,
now that you're miles and miles away
i didn't seem to care much since
you blew away my awfull hints
well i bought this souvenir
but its not what you want to hear
I sat and meditated
thinking of how you'd be elated
none of it came to play
you took your ride and went away
(name) , if i only had the words
you wouldn't think im one of the nerds
oh i've thought of words to say,
now that you're miles and miles away
...


Traugstenthorn "Wave" Neglected - 16 years, 4 months, 14 days ago

what am i worth? i see my picture bought and sold.
i am a commodity to hot or to cold?
upon sequins i hear the roar of spiders
spinning thru the welcome writers.
i watch in anger as they roar with laughter.
it all seems to simple.
to be a product without a voice.
to be digitally copied at the whims of choice.
I want nothing more than a pet on the head.
telling me i'm good and they like what i said.
no choices are here my friend i say.
no lovers or freedoms are won this day.
from worries to woes
to shuddering fros
theres no answer hanging in the wind.
we muster the truth and cover it with icing
to be polite is to lie with one thing.
the bed of roses we do not shred,
the fridge we jump to from our bed.
I have a value i have a worth.
I decide it since my birth.
to me i am priceless, a miracle to behold.
and now i realise we all are.....,
we just have to be told.
Traugstenthorn "Wave" Neglected - 16 years, 6 months, 5 days ago

theta waves
Traugstenthorn "Wave" Neglected - 16 years, 6 months, 8 days ago

delta waves
Traugstenthorn "Wave" Neglected - 16 years, 6 months, 8 days ago