Find myself singing the same songs everyday
Ones that make me feel good
When things behind the smiles ain't ok

Around and over and in-between the seas
I need to be on top of a mountain
Where I can be see everything
Cause this paranoia's getting old

Now as I open my eyes to start another day
I'm in a pile of puke
Empty bag of excuses
My love for friends and family
you know I need them

And under a sun that's seen it all before
My feet are so cold
And I can't believe that I have to bang my
Head against this wall again
But the blows they have just a little more
Space in-between them

Gonna take a breath and try again
Unknown "~~Bud B~~" Loyal - 16 years, 8 months, 20 days ago

I don't feel the sun's coming out today
It's staying in... It's gonna find another way
As I sit here in this misery
I don't think I'll ever know lord
See the sun from here

And oh as I fade away
They'll all look at me and say,
and they'll say,
Hey, look at him I'll never live that way
But that's ok, they're just afraid to change

And when you feel life ain't worth living
You've got to stand up, and take a look around, then you look up way to the sky

And when your deepest thoughts are broken,
Keep on dreamin' boy, cus when you stop dreamin' it's time to die

And as we all play parts of tomorrow
Some ways we'll work, and other ways we'll play
But I know we can't all stay here forever
So I'm gonna write my words on the face of today....
until they'll paint it

And oh... As I fade away
They'll all look at me and say, and they'll say
Hey look at him, and where he is these days
When life is hard you have to change...
When life is hard you have to change
Unknown "~~Bud B~~" Loyal - 16 years, 9 months, 3 days ago

Unknown "~~Bud B~~" Loyal - 16 years, 9 months, 11 days ago

I was bold bold calculated cold
Like when you walk into a room
And everybody knows
I was a capricorn lying by being a lion

So I'm sold sold every color gold
I was meant to be alive forver I've been told
Even if I kill myself trying

Days go on and break your heart son
Even if you're strong
Days go on and bring good fortne
Even when you're wrong

We're getting old old these pots are growing mold
Two shots too much and the sunset was the show
And I paid nothing to watch it glow for seven miles
So grow grow good intentions fading slow
Cuz I'd be a better boy but it's hard to say no
When there's love in this life, you stay afloat all the while
Unknown "~~Bud B~~" Loyal - 16 years, 9 months, 11 days ago

The air fills with smoke
We all start to drink
I came here alone
To hear mysekf think

I part all the wisdom
That I could think of
Now I'm buying the last round
Cuz it wasn't enough

Guess I'll try to love myself
Instead of crying like everyone else
If the sky can hold up the sun
Why can't I love someone

Here I dine on the finest of gin
Spent all my time with two unknown friends
Brother how do they get me to bend
It's just the way, you're only a man

The sun is peeking out
Last night it made sense
To drink like a man
Not sit on the fence

If I had it back now
I'd do it again
So I'll buy the first round
And bury my sins
Unknown "~~Bud B~~" Loyal - 16 years, 9 months, 18 days ago