i hate my body so much right now and i wish i didn't. i want to be healthy, i want to try and i have the tools to i just get so depressed, like how the jeans i'm wearing is the only pair i have that fit n i wear them so much that they are vey worn and about to falll apart, all of my clothes are tooo tight. i had to get an extender for my bras b/c they dont fit. i dont feel sexy but at the same time i haven't been able to motivate my self enough to change my diet and exercise, n its hard because his mom does the shopping and buys more unhealthy foods than healthy. i haven't been sleeping well which i know is a major part of my wieght gain but it seems that my sleeping pills aren't working as well any more and i cant get them fixed. i know i'm just making excuses and i know this all probibly has an effect on why i dont have a job yet. i guess i need pointers on how to kick myself in the ass n get moving.
Unknown "Sins Pagey" Playful - 16 years, 10 months, 19 days ago