An Ode to the Author of Romance.

I searched for you and you came to me
Professing your undying love
Your watchful eyes never wandered
Solely looking at me with delight

I yearned for your touch
And you wrapped me in your arms
Your warmth brought tingles to my soul
Sending sublime peace inside

I longed to touch your face
And look you in the eyes
There I saw mist of happiness
From abounding ardor within

Oh, where else can I find love so supreme
But in your words, touch, and gaze
Where else shall I ever find a Lover
As captivating and beautiful as you are.


Unknown "__) MEH (__" Purring - 16 years, 1 day ago

CHRISTMAS FEVER! Parties, activities, worries and wishes come filling my life. Everything seems like a circus.

I want to go beyond the gifts, the fun, and all the physical preparations of celebrating Christmas. I want to feel God. But I can't seem to find Him somewhere.

I miss my God. This Christmas, I hope I can truly celebrate Christ's birthday. I want to venerate Him and His existence. I know if I make Him happy, this whole holiday thing will be such meaningful and great.

Let everything this Christmas be all about celebrating God's goodness.
Let it be filled with gratitude, humility, graciousness and love.
I want my happiness to root from wanting to make my God happy.



Unknown "__) MEH (__" Purring - 16 years, 6 days ago

HOW DO YOU UN-MEAN YOURSELF?
If meanness is a flu, i think i already have a fever. High fever, that is. I need to treat it before it worsens and get innocent bodies infected.

My conscience diagnosed it. Getting a great audience from shooting funny nasty remarks like a fire gun is empowering. It makes me deliriously evil. As i bask in the joy of being a funny witch, strange fear slowly creeps in. Suddenly, Dr. Conscience showed up and asked, what if I am going overboard? And what am i doing to my innately good soul? (Yeah, i believe that...so take that smirk out.)

I think I am ruthless. I can sleep having overly-sensitive people hurt from my truthful rougishness. I could just sigh and roll my eyes. I am a believer that life is not just about tenderness, but toughness. Vulnerable people die in grief. For a time, I went on walking mercilessly in my throne of funny arrogance.

But I have a conscience.
In my quiet moment now, I am contemplating on how have I molded my character lately. I still believe that life is about toughness. But I am not liking what I am creating myself.
I still want to be that gentle tender woman who knows how to be frisky and fierce when needed...just when needed. I know I could be that beautiful, modest, and graceful lady with hidden mischievousness coming out only to amuse innocent souls around.

So now I seek help. How do I un-mean myself and retain that charming impishness?
How do I control it when I feel it is already running in my veins?
How do i undo this bad habit? Hard.

At this moment, I am feeling the symptoms of meanness attacking my good soul (notice that I mentioned it twice already ;D). I feel sad a bit, a little guilty and weak. So should i blame my conscience for this? Or should I acknowledge this sickness and try a good remedy?

I want a remedy.

Unknown "__) MEH (__" Purring - 16 years, 1 month, 11 days ago

Whenever I am in a difficult situation, I always remember what my God told me to never fail to do...SMILE. Can you imagine how hard it is to smile when you are in a pit struggling to climb out? I imagine I'd look insane. But I trust my God, and foolishly, I smile everytime things are hard to bear.

Just when I thought I am making a fool of myself, it began clear to me that God is indeed wise to let me just do crazy things for him. He knew in the first place there is a reason to smile about. He surprises me in a hilarious, ecstatic, and heartwarming way.

God's humor is deep. Smiling in difficult times is hard. But I am a person who is passionate about deep joys...i love smiling while crying. Crazy, isn't it? But doing so brings me to a garden of secret joys only me and my God can see.
Unknown "__) MEH (__" Purring - 16 years, 4 months, 19 days ago

I LOVE LIFE!
Unknown "__) MEH (__" Purring - 16 years, 5 months, 18 days ago