I can't do this again. I can't do this right now. I can't loose another one. What does this mean?
I can't handle this. I think my body's going to pull the plug soon. It will be a miracle to make it home tonight.
I can feel the darkness all fuzzy around the edges just out side my sight. It's so warm and inviting. Like that feeling when someone is strangling you and the feeling starts to disappear, you just fall into dark, into fuzzy, and warm. Not to be mistaken with fuzzywarm.
Unknown "Anguisette NFS" Sleepy - 16 years, 1 day ago

I can't even describe how it feels to have them back in my life again :]
I <3 my boys, and now that all three of us have grown we can go back to being perfect for each other again.
Unknown "Anguisette NFS" Sleepy - 16 years, 17 days ago

disappointment and a sudden veer in plans is what fuels so much for so many people. But for me . . .it just. . .fuels nothing. A complete nothing. It fuels me to sit there and curl up in a ball and feel the pain oozing out the cracks in me and I reach around to try and hold it all in, as if by holding myself I could hold myself together.
It's not the end of the world, but it's not the beginning of a new world like I thought it would be either.
Unknown "Anguisette NFS" Sleepy - 16 years, 4 months ago

What happens when an unstoppable force meets an unmoveable object?
Unknown "Anguisette NFS" Sleepy - 16 years, 4 months, 2 days ago

Sometimes you do things that are wrong and right. Sometimes people make mistakes but it takes so long to notice them that it is un-moving and un-changeable by the time you realize--it might've been a mistake.
I made one of those. And every day my heart aches for it. It is a pain under the surface that will never go away, because I held control of my life and my destiny in my hands, and I spit in it's face.

"You will wonder if I loved you,
of course.

The answer is yes;
a thousand times, yes.

I wonder, as I write this, how to find the words to tell you?
Words that you will believe in light of my history?
I can tell you this:
Whatever I have done, I have never violated the precept of Blessed Elua."

Love as Thou Wilt.
And I swear, I thought I was loving.
Unknown "Anguisette NFS" Sleepy - 16 years, 4 months, 3 days ago