OK things are pretty sucky. I don't mean in a good way either. How that could be construde as a good thing, I'm not entirely sure but I guess that's based on personal preference, ANYWAY.
So I seem to be permanently suffering from a lack of energy, both physical and mentally. Yeah at work I can do all my projects but they seem to be burning me out. What makes matters worse is that even with the amount of work I do for the place, I only achieve minimal respect from co-workers. I don't blame them, they have their own things to be getting on with, but there's only so many times you can take being told "you're not busy, you just surf the internet all day".
This physical tiredness seems to be taking a lot out of me, especially my eyes. It's either staring at monitors all day or it's the idea that I might need glasses. Or a combination of both. I mean I'm not surprised I may need glasses, I am surprised I've lasted this long.
As for the mental side of things, I seem to have lost all kinds of inspiration for anything creative outside of work.
It's hard to describe.. it's like writers block. I can't update my webcomic, I can't take any new photos, I can't continue to write my book.. heh that's real writers block.. I want to get out and have some fun, like free running or being on a mountain bike and nearly killing myself or scaling a mountain just to sit down at the top and drink a coke.
I can't do half of those things.. well I say "can't", the thing that stops me is that NONE of my friends in this area can. Hiking? Nope, they don't have the time, mountain biking? Nope they all don't have the time. Free running? Don't make me laugh.
Maybe when the spring and summer comes round this will all kinda lift. That's when I'll be able to take my car for a spin so yeah things like that should sort me out.
There are other things that could help. Like maybe I could work up the confidence .. no that's wrong.. maybe I could just meet someone I like. (That's a girl.. for those not following). I have but.. why is it complicated? Heh if I knew that, I wouldn't be typing this long winded piece of garbage.. I wonder if it has a character limit. That'd be ironic right about now.
Think I've ran out of steam. I'll be surprised if someone takes the time to read this. If you do, just leave a comment, it'll be appreciated.
Unknown "My Ride" Inspired
- 16 years, 10 months, 24 days ago
