Once a upon a time there was this village gal named Navie. She met Ass, a hunter and after spending a few weeks together, she thought it could be happily ever after. Even though Ass only loves to tell his hunting stories and all he knew is to spend time in the woods with the rest of his animals.
Then time comes for Ass to go hunting, and weeks after weeks of waiting, still no sign of Ass's return.
Navie waited and one day, she received news that Ass needed her to build a new place and bring him a new hunting dog from a town faraway.
She did as told and never question a thing. She felt since Ass is away that is the little things she can do to help him to be more comfortable in life.
During the visit to the faraway town,she found out that Ass was hiding the fact that he has a lady friend from his hunting group. And no one would help her get the dog. So she went away from the town, sad but still want to complete her promise to Ass.
Ass came back to the village finally, got his stuff from Navie and she never got to see him again.
She wondered why and what went wrong? She did as told and spent all the little savings she has.
Days passed and she fell very sick and need to see a doctor. She could not work and so she thought she have to get some help from Ass.
Ass refused to help her and she travel again to the faraway town and told the hunting group what happened and finally, Ass gave her some money.
Help came too late and Navie passed away.
She could not understand the complicated human heart but she has no regrets to having done the stupid acts.
She said "If given the chance again, she wished that she has choosen to live her life happily with whatever she had then to believe that someone would come along and bring joy to her life"
No one is responsible for your own happiness and no one will give you joy. Being together is hardwork and human nature tends to move towards pleasure than hardwork unless it is for their own benefit. Navie's benefit to Ass was a shortlived one.
Love yourself enough to treasure every minute of your life, you never know when is the next minute you will leave Mother Earth...
Unknown "Orange's Glory" Hurt - 16 years, 23 days ago

After watching Body of Lies, the news of Mumbai bombing was shown on the news...gosh would like to quote Leonardo lines "it is fucking insane, what is the point?"
Can they just do it over World of Warcraft or something? Just like how my office decided that the table soccer will be where we settle all disagreements.
If the recession is not driving ppl insane, the joy of traveling has turned into a nightmare. I almost booked myself a trip to BKK for the upcoming weekend when I saw the bad news on TV.
Seeing all the insane politics driven events causing pain to people, then seeing the crazy politics in my life....gosh I didn't even want to consider myself part of the issue. In fact, after serious energy invested on the question - wat have I done to aggro "it"(disclaimer: maybe just you or a gang of you).....My dressing? I have bigger hips and boobs? I am happy though I have no man ard me? I have a brain? I dun discriminate? I m more aware that there is a real world out there? Can't be at ease as I kept approaching you in a friendly manner though u give me attitude?
Ok fair enough...it was at this point that I stopped wanting to waste my energy on this. I cannot help that someone or a group of ppl feel extremely concerned that I am different.

This is not the first time...during my poly days there are people I encountered who behaved exactly the same way. Looking back at what happened 11yrs ago and what is the current situation....I really thank everyone and every spirit that was there to give me confidence to live life with a different attitude.

Because I have yet to look back to curse or get depressed about my past years. I hope you all will live life believing in yourself....while being aware there is a real world out there that is not only about ourselves.

You learn through open communication, you grow in acceptance, you will love and be loved in awareness, you will experience true happiness when your life is balanced.

It is how I live and therefore my friend who ask me "how can u tahan XXX and react so calmly to Y>> comments"....hope you finally see ME and stop asking the same question haha

K just in case....Words cannot kill me even if it is a fact, it is still ultimately my choice to believe it..call me deluded but emotions are never rational anyway. Most importantly, I m happy with my life with or without a boyfriend...to have and being treated well is a blessing, if he is stressing me...well we will still be friends

I cant stress enough...life is too short to store negative feelings for anyone...our property on Earth is not freehold n even lesser than 99yrs lease
Unknown "Orange's Glory" Hurt - 16 years, 27 days ago

Just watched a movie on cable, it was repeated many times but I never wanna watch it as the 30secs trailer mislead me to think it is abt HKG 1997 transition.
Today I was so lonely on a Friday night that I sat down and watch the movie while trying hard to concentrate on my Hypnotherapy course materials.
I cried again...as though my eyes were swollen enough
It is abt a girl who grew up selling fish in a wet market and like me she loves to keep a diary of her dreams and her goals. And we both fear turning 30.
Her dad passed away and she was free to pursue her dream finally...to find a career she loves..and a man she deserves to live happily ever after...
There was a man who is not outstanding looking nor have an accomplished career...just an ordinary guy who cares for her whole heartedly and strives to be the man she wants.
She told him some people she will not even think about it so asked him not to have her in his plan.
Years later, she became an accomplished make-up artist....and she dated alot of guys, cute ones, smart ones, famous ones, successful guys...but none she felt could give her the life she wants.
Returning to HKG, she met the guy again and realised that she really just longed for a man who truly cares for her. However the guy already has a family. Gosh so sad it is not a happy ending..but this is real life isn't...that is what touched me.
10 years later, she returns to the market that she grew up in and recounted that she did not achieve many things in her diary. In the past she would view herself as a failure, now she understand that it is all a process.
I seemed to be looking into the future man...gosh...then a movie on ballroom dancing came on...haha maybe the 30 year old hag with stiff bones like me can achieve my dream too...then I can have my own dance school and forget about the fairytale i have been holding onto for the past 28 years...
It is pursuit of Happiness because you can never own it...its a process you enjoy going after it...waking up everyday hoping to have recognition at work...developing a good relationship with the man u thought is the Mr Right....working hard on those dance steps hoping to be the dancing queen...
As I get older...some things I just come to terms that no matter how hard I try...you just cannot have best of both worlds...and I am not strong to cope with stress in life..
Unknown "Orange's Glory" Hurt - 16 years, 1 month, 12 days ago

Take me home country road, back to where I belong.
Where was I before I was born? Is it a safe place that feels like home?
I want to go home...I have to go home...
I wan to rest my body and spirit cause I think I worn them for too long.
I need to stop and breathe and think cause I do not wish to waste another moment doing and saying things I do not meant to.
Here without YOU, no matter how hard I think about it day and night.
Will someone send me a letter a day to bring me back on my feet?
Give me back my sweet song...please
Unknown "Orange's Glory" Hurt - 16 years, 1 month, 14 days ago

Been busy preparing for my hypnotherapy course...here is some things to share with you folks out there feeling a little down and unsure..
There is a book "The Secrets" you can check out at the bookstore...its talking about the law of attraction.
We love to think negatively..its like a natural reflex.
The next time you are feeling down, try counting your blessings...learn to think positively or write something positive to yourself and read it before leaving home...bet you gonna feel better and better each day.
Life is a journey to collect beautiful lessons and stories...if you could see that all the trials you are facing now is just part of your journey...maybe it will not hurt that much..
*gosh I dun think i make sense here cos someone is rushing me off his computer!*
Unknown "Orange's Glory" Hurt - 16 years, 2 months, 14 days ago