So it has come to this... I can hardly believe my own ears...

You've finally shown your true colours. It's so obvious to everyone who is sane that the problem here is you so stop pushing the blame to me all the time because it's YOU who can't forgive and forget.

When I tried to talk to you and hoped you'd reply the same way like you did. You never showed it.
You went to hang out with your friends despite the fact I needed comfort especially from you. I never got it.
I kept quiet in order not to spoil your day and still waited for you to ask me like you always did. I never saw it.
I gave you obvious hints that I was still sad a few days later and guess what? I didn't get any of it.

This is the best explanation you can give me?

"You can't blame me to hang out with my friends and my change. They've always been there for me all the time after our fight. I don't feel the same with you anymore and there's nothing to say when it comes to you. I'd rather be honest by saying nothing at all rather than pretending. It'll be unfair to both of us"

In that case pls stop it with the "I want things to get back to normal", "he's not a replacement for you" and "despite everything I still love you". You've wasted all my effort. Now I felt like a fool trusting you because you ARE a terrible liar and you said it yourself. Do you even have any god damn idea how hurt I am when you said that? Why the heck do you want me back in your life and said those things then? So you can hurt me back?

I can safely deduce that you've thrown away all the hard work we've put into to keep the friendship alive. Normal again when you've obviously changed? Not a replacement when you obviously didn't talk to me but them instead? Loved me when you'd rather hang out with them and obviously ignorant of my feelings?

I've always wanted you to prove me wrong. But you just keep proving me right all the time. What are you gonna do now when you read this? Lash out at me or perhaps this time you can't be bothered and run to cry to your friends?

So much for your "love and be loved in return". I always thought you deserve love but from the way it is now you really deserve none.
Unknown "kwissy" Lonely - 15 years, 10 months, 15 days ago

When I'm depressed after getting lectured and you know it. We were hanging out together and supposed to talk. But we did almost none of that. Where were you...? SMSing your friends.
When I'm upset after getting lectured and definately needed comfort, especially from you. You told me off and went away. Where were you...? Hanging out with your friends...
When I wanted to tell you what I felt, you don't seem to be interested despite the fact you were the one who always asked for it before. Where were you...? Having fun with your friends...
When you didn't reply my SMS and got me almost worried sick. I asked you to reply me back but you didn't. I did my check. Where were you...? Chilling out with your friends...

"He's not a replacement for you. Not even close"
They ARE a replacement for me, especially that Golden... It clearly shows...

"You just don't freaking cooperate!"
I've already cooperated more than enough to get things back to normal despite your change... It clearly shows...

"I'm stupid. I'm really really stupid. My actions contradict me. That's how I'm made."
I'm probably the stupidest person in history alive to give you another chance after hearing that... It clearly shows...

"Despite everything I still love you"
You don't love me anymore... It clearly shows...

All our arguments are for nothing. All our talks are for nothing. The times we spend together are for nothing. All my pain for you... is for nothing...

You said I killed you... So are you trying to kill me back...?
Unknown "kwissy" Lonely - 15 years, 10 months, 22 days ago

My joy quickly turns to dissapointment as all the effort I spent gone down the drain
My dissapointment quickly turns into sorrow as one of the people I love most hurts me again in more ways than one.

I'll just keep taking it and suffer in silence as I'm growing tired of complaining and people who just shoots their mouth off and wouldn't understand.
Unknown "kwissy" Lonely - 15 years, 10 months, 29 days ago

Another wound in my heart... and it's not just from one person... Jeremy... I regret not listening to your advice...
Unknown "kwissy" Lonely - 15 years, 11 months, 9 days ago

"you were a big part in my life", "I miss you", "It's... just not the same anymore", "I want things to return back to normal"
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"I've given up on you", "I don't know what to reply...", "I can't see you because it just feels weird!"

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Well... which is it? What the hell do you exactly want? I know what I want. It's either you become the girl that I recognise again to me or leave me be completely.

Basically, just be yourself for I already am.
Unknown "kwissy" Lonely - 15 years, 11 months, 14 days ago