"Have you forgotten
All this beauty around you

All your worries
Could easily fade behind you

Who is pulling you back
With such strength?

I hear you calling
Your voice is bright
You hear me calling back

After finding
You're always right
You're always right
And I tried."
The Gathering - Forgotten

Thank god I can cry now, without booze or drugs. Emptiness is filling me so fast, I just can't stand it. "Drown all your sorrows in booze", it's just NOT working.

Next Friday will be the most difficult day of my life. With fear I wait it, but still I hope I could get some relief about that I can see you for the last time. Sighs&cries in the night.

Rest in peace my dearest friend. :'(
Unknown "Opheliac" Lonely - 16 years, 8 months, 13 days ago

"Imagine what it would be like if loneliness was all ...! No fulfillment, nor hope inside, could I endure this sadest fate if loneliness was all ...?

"Will I ever find the one I've waiting for a thousand years?"
but the answer to this question lies within the confines of your (hopes and) fears.
"Heal me, feel me, reveal and seal me! Shed a light upon my lonely soul!"
But there is no-one (no other being) on the outside to make you whole ... "

Aaww, listening to Sopor Aeternus & The Ensemble of Shadows in the dark cold night like this. This is just the music what I need right now. It sounds so daamn pretty. Well, nothing else to say right now. Maybe I'm not that desperate that Anna-Varney is but but but... My heart is crushing because of Her!

P.S. Music is good therapy.
Unknown "Opheliac" Lonely - 16 years, 9 months, 4 days ago

"when the joys of living just leave you cold
frozen from the failing mess you made your own
and if you want an ending to your screenplay life
well here's the consolation that will change your heart and mind..."
This will make you love again by IAMX

here is the consolation... where the f*ck is it?! Again, listening this song all over again and thinking about the meaning of life. This sucks sooo badly. Life sucks. Wehee.
Unknown "Opheliac" Lonely - 16 years, 9 months, 28 days ago

Something wicked this way comes. Drawing while listening Shape of Despair & Switchblade Symphony. I can't understand where did that creepy hand came from, well maybe I shouldn't even think about it. From the depths of my mind, maybe..

I haven't felt this artistic for a loong long time, it's extremely nice to draw something.. Wehee.

I hope those creepy hands will not come to my dreams. :O I don't wanna see any nightmares tonight. Please, little cute kittens, come to my dreamland<3
Unknown "Opheliac" Lonely - 16 years, 10 months, 12 days ago