Sorry i havent been on in awhile, i really do miss be online either chatting with you guys or playing diablo but i hurt my back more then i thought..I went to the chiropractor wed and i they said i slipped my lower disc...I already had two treatments with adjustments and he wants me to have at least 10-12 over the next month....I can move around somewhat better but still get pain and it hurts to sit in our chair long, I have my good and bad days and just want this pain to go away..I miss you guys and didn't want you to think i forgot you for i haven't... I really hate being limited in what I can do and not exercising now really does bother me cause i feel like i am gaining back the weight i lost but i think what happened was the first time i hurt my back about 6months-1yr ago started this and some of the exercise that affected my back area just irritated the problem so now im afraid to exercise again when i get fully better..I cant wait to im back to my old self..I will try to get on as much as i can, cause i miss you guys alot.. Please dont think i forgot anyone cause i haven't.... Gothic Love always Kristi
Unknown "pet kristi" Content - 16 years, 2 months, 11 days ago

We never realize how much we will miss something till we no longer have it anymore, wed afternoon i began my reg exercise routine i been doing since i been trying to lose weight...I guess since it had been a week since i exercised due to female things that i over did it cause my back started hurting so i had stopped...Well Thrusday when i tried getting up i could barely move at all and even had to crawl to the bathroom cause standing up was out of the question even with help..Well i tried a heating pad etc..and still hurt so when me and chris got up friday was going to go to the hostipal but i could not walk down the steps so we had to call an ambulance and they had to put me in some chair and carry me down and put me on a strectcher.First time in an ambulance, when we got to the hostipal they gave me 4 doses of pain killers one stronger then morphine, boy did i feel no pain what so ever LOL,,was feeling good..So that helped me to move around somewhat better then went and got my presciption filled which was vicodon and valium...I am now able to walk alot better and move around but still cant do to much to put strain oin my back but i think i will be better soon..I never thought about how i would feel if lose my ability to walk or move.now I realize never to take the simple things we do on a daily basis for granted for you never know what can happen.


Also I would like everyone to keep some friends in their thoughts and prayers(for the ones who pray)..Sunday morning around 1am a young life was taken way before their time..No one really knows why these things happen.How can one explain a 3month old baby losing their life? I can not wrap my thoughts around it and my heart aches for my two friends who looked at him as their own..RIP Little Man,may you finally be at peace and have no more pain...We shall all miss you
Unknown "pet kristi" Content - 16 years, 2 months, 21 days ago

Renunciation Of Love

My angel does not consist of wings
In all her beauty, a single smile does sting
There are no demons to lead me astray
For I am always the victim, and love is the prey

Not once nor twice have I played the sap
If love is trying to take me again,awake me now with a slap
Must fight this evil growing in my heart
Gone to long rejoicing in life, to have it tear me apart

Begone you parasite, leave me alone
Will not kneel at your throne
Chains of passion will not hold me here
Her kisses means nothing, my head is clear

Over the years I have learned strength
This barrier will keep you at arm's length
You might have me captive in a cell
In due time I shall escape this hell

Love is just something I want no part of
My life is not in your hands, its free as a dove
Goodbye to you mistress of lust
With this knife I shall turn you to dust

Unknown "pet kristi" Content - 16 years, 5 months, 10 days ago

Date With Death

The needles in the flesh
The poison running through
your veins
Pain is to good for you
Death may even be so
All I want for you is
Suffering and endless horror
You pathetic creature
Like a leech or a tick
You come out of the shadows
when not excepted
To drain your victims dry
To take away all you can
How I long to squish you like
the bug you really are
Don't try my patience
Its gone just like my sanity
All that is left is a sick and
twisted mind
Blood is my obsession
Pain is my pleasure
I shall inflict my deadly plan
upon your coffin bed
I am the thorn
Cutting away at your rotting
flesh
I am the reaper
Are you ready to pay the piper?
You failed to destroy me completely
Just set off my eternal anger
All was well, All was pure
Till you tainted it with your filth
Now you must pay for your sin
Fuck the laws, Fuck the commandments
My heart is filled with anarchy
Grow wild this hatred
I am the half crazed bitch
Ready to slit your wrists
Watch you bleed till your last drop
of blood
Its to late to turn back now
You have un awakened the psycho
within
Don't run...Don't hide
There is nowhere I wont find
you
For this knife I hold within my
hand
Has a date with you
A date with death


Unknown "pet kristi" Content - 16 years, 8 months, 7 days ago

Sometimes I wander why I am still here
Sometimes I wander why I still care
This anger wont fade
Nothing but jade
My heart beats for you
Alas it also bleeds for you
You push me to the brinks
Maybe i need a shrink
I love you my dear
Stop makkng me leer
Please let this pain die
So once again I can no longer
wish to cry
Wear my heart on my sleeve
Will you long to leave?
For I just push you away
When I feel so astray
Linger not on promises and
love
For they never last like that
of dove
Embrace me now and hold on
tight
I need to feel it once again the
light
Unknown "pet kristi" Content - 16 years, 9 months, 4 days ago