Last Friday my mum rang me and told me that my grandpa had passed away. I have been spending time with my family and attending my grandpa's funeral. This has been an extremely sad time for me.

Talk soon
Emma

Unknown "Foxy" Loyal - 16 years, 3 months, 1 day ago

Hello hello,

How are you lovely human pets out there? Things have been happening.
* I'm still on probation at work (not fun) but getting things done.
* I'm starting classes at university tommorow and am excited to see my friends again.
* Next Monday I'm starting placement at a neurology ward at a local hospital.
* I've got a party next weekend which should be okay
* and I'm planning a trip out of the city
Sorry for the dot points. I'm just trying to cram in as much information as I can before going to cook potato's veggies and sausages for dinner.

Luv Ya
Em oxoxoxxo
Unknown "Foxy" Loyal - 16 years, 4 months, 6 days ago

Hi everyone,

Sorry it's been so long again. Things have been a bit hectic lately. I had a bit of trouble at work last week and ended up on probation for six weeks (woops!). Its a long story so I won't get into the details but its the reason I haven't made contact for a while. I've been heads down bums up working on being a star so that the whole issue will blow over. So far so good!

Today its been drizziling outside so I've been hanging out at home drinking cruisers (lollie water alcohol), eating cheesy crust pizza and watching B grade movies ("The Ripper Within" or something along those lines). In all not a bad day. I did take my new puppy Milo to the vet to get vacinated. While there he was diagnosed with ear mites. The vet showed me the little alien mites swimming around under the microscope. So I bought a bunch of medication and have been feeling sorry for him ever since.

By the way I did end up seeing Cloverfeild at the movies. It was terrible! I would rate it about 2/10 and that's still a bit to high. I actually walked out of the theatre before it was over and got a refund on my tickets. Think The Blear Witch Project on crack. The cinematography was plain terrible. It was supposed to be recorded on a hand held camera but there was so much movement you just couldn't tell what was going on.

I'm feeling a little lonely at the moment so anyone out there reading this please feel free to message me :)

I hope you all have a lovely weekend.

oxox

Unknown "Foxy" Loyal - 16 years, 4 months, 22 days ago

Confession......

In my second year at university I was involved in a high speed car accident. My car was ruined and I sustained a traumatic brain injury. Since my accident I have needed to change my life. I have had to adopt compensatory learning strategies, change my career goals and deal with limitations I never though I would have. To meet me you would not be able to tell that anything is wrong. It's when I need to take in allot of information at once, remember important dates and events and integrate information from different sources that I find myself struggling. I also get extreemly fatigued often becoming cranky and irritable by the end of the day. For someone that's high functioning and had dreams of becoming an academic with her own practice, this has been devistating. It's been extreemly hard to come to terms with the fact that I now have limitations on what I am able to do and achieve. In the past I have fallen into bouts of depression and anxiety. Often feeling hopeless that I will ever be the person I have always wanted to be. Despite my fears and losses I still battle on. Sometimes feeling like things will be okay, sometimes not. My accident has been a huge secret in my life, considering my job and university courses. In a way I feel that if others new about my difficulties they would prejudge my ability before giving me the chance to show what I can really do. So far I have been able to maintain a full time job, sustain a 3.889 GPA and see patients in the clinic for my placement. It's been a struggle and at time thought everything was going to crash down around me. I know I should be proud of what I have achieved. I guess sometimes I lose perspective, compairing myself with my peers at university. It's heartening to remember that I'm just a country girl, that grew up in a disfunctional family, abused drugs and alcohol in my teens and ran away from home when I was fifteen. I guess when I consider the places I've been, the people I've associated with and the influences that could have weighed me down, I have come a long way.

I sometimes find I'm counting the days away and realise that before long they'll all be gone and I'll be old and wondering where my life has gone. Maybe this is the process, the challenges and the wonders I need to face to grow. Who knows? I'm just along for the ride.

Have a lovely night and please respect my secret :)
Unknown "Foxy" Loyal - 16 years, 4 months, 28 days ago

I'm back at work today. I should let everyone know that I sent a very direct email to my boss at the begining of the week telling her my concerns. She didn't reply but today was really nice at lunch so I'm assuming my email was a success (rather than her not wanting any conflict before she leaves in a couple of weeks). Im choosing to feeling happy I stood up for myself and that things worked out.

It's about 3:40pm and I'm wondering how my pups, Mia and Milo, are handling being by themself for so long. Mia has a tendency to dig holes in the garden (especially flower beds that have magnolias in them) so things could be pretty messy when I get home.

Having Milo around has also made getting exercise difficult. Lately I've been eating tim-tams, take away and a ton of other calorie ladden foods and am desperite for a run. I'm planning on heading out for a run when I get home today, depending on the state of the garden and bathroom. I may also have to console the neighbours who could be pulling their hair out listening to two puppies crying all day. Fingers crossed that their not.

I'd also like to head to the movies to see Cloverfield this week. I saw the trailer and it looks okay. I'm into movies with a supernatural, thriller type theme. But they have to have a good ending. I'm sick of seeing films that just end. I need closure after two hours of intense viewing otherwise I'm left feeling unfullfilled and let down. If anyones interested, a couple of movies worth watching are: crash (makes you think about "the bigger picture" and how you treat people), bigfish (reminds me of my father), neverwas (great for psychologists), premonition (just because I love that sort of thing) and what dreams may come (because Robyn Williams is truely amazing).

Got to get back to work.
Em oxoxox
Unknown "Foxy" Loyal - 16 years, 5 months, 8 days ago