Hmmm, I guess before I talk about my unhappy day maybe I should try to look at something to happy about. I just got my results and I've finally graduated with Honors. I guess it's nothing much but it could be something to be happy about.

Okay, now for the real stuff. The job that I'm currently doing is basically to offer support. I was kinda partially cheated because they told me it was nothing much to do with support. Now that I'm really in it I can see that it is nothing but support. Just the kind of job that I did not wanted. I can't deny that they are paying me a lot but I guess it's only reasonable as it is jobs like these that people do not want. This week is my third week of work and today I got my first problem so naturally I did not know what to do and how to solve it and had to ask my supervisor. Just all of a sudden the way he talked to me changed. The way he was talking to me felt like he was reluctant to teach me. It's my third week at work and this is my first problem. I've not asked him anything technical before this as I did not get a real hands on the system that I was suppose to be in charged of. I tried asking him a couple of time but he did acted like he did not hear me. We are sharing a same cubicle and he's just seated next to me but he pretended not to hear me. I had to ask him several times. His reply was, "I'm working on it". After he solved the problem he just asked me to notify the user that the problem has been solved.

I was then just being left there. I tried asking him about the cause and solution to that particular situation so that I could probably know what to do if I encounter the same problem. He acted busy and said he would explain to me later. Fair enough, I waited till about 3 something in the afternoon where he is actually free to start walking around to chat. When he walk by my seat I called and asked him again. And again he rejected and walked away with reluctance to teach me. So I was left there without a clue and idea on what happened and how to solve it.

I'm very unsure of why he is reacting that way towards me today. Maybe he was really busy, maybe he was having some problems on his own, maybe the job that I'm doing now was his job and that he is afraid that I might someday be better then him. Whatever it is, I really don't know. Maybe on a bigger picture it might seem like a really small issue in the working environment where there can be no real friends. But since he is my supervisor and the person I should turn to in case I have any question has already turned it's back on me and refused to pass down any knowledge to me I guess it's going to be difficult to work here already.

I guess I'll have to observe the situation a couple more weeks to actually confirm if he's really reluctant to pass down his knowledge to me because from what I know is he is still currently working on this system and he was the one who developed portions of this system. I guess I should still be looking for jobs. I don't plan to say in technical support anyway. Especially supporting a system that is being used in production line where I have to be on call 24/7. I guess such high pay really does come at a higher cost.

Lord, is this your plan for me to work here? If it is, confirm it by being with me at work and provide me your grace and strength to carry on. If not, please open a window for me O Lord.

It has been awhile since I last blogged. I last checked and it was 25th June 2008 and that wasn’t about my recent life. I look back and realize that all my blogs are about the negative things that have happened in my life. I guess it’s true that when things are all good that you spent less time pondering about your own life.

I guess I’ll make this blog entry different, instead of posting something negative I guess I’ll write something good this time. Actually, I don’t really have something bad to write about. Things have been going extremely great for me. I’ve just finish my degree on mid of September and I’ve got a job and started working on the 20th of October. I’ve just started this job so I don’t know much about it just yet. But what I do know is that the pay is good.

The forecast results for my finals just came out during the weekends and I not only pass all my papers but also manage to obtain the results that I wanted. So far, four of my classmates have failed papers and there are a few more that is afraid to check their results. I guess I’m really lucky to be able to get a job even before my final results are out. On top of that I guess I’m also really lucky to be able to obtain a job before next year with the economic crisis coming.

To be really frank, I don’t really see how I could get the job considering that I felt I did not do well at all during the interview. I hardly even spoke a sentence. Either they’re in badly in need of people or it was purely by the grace of God. I’m really happy I’ve got this job because they are paying me quite high. Especially for a fresh grad and with the current economic condition.

On top of that, I’ve just got my results for my finals during the weekends. And once again I positive it is by the grace of God. Almost half my classmates have failed subjects during the semester. I was very fortunate to not only pass but also to get good results. I really very happy about it, everything seems to be extremely smooth sailing for me for the time being. Sometimes I wonder if he is preparing me for some great disaster ahead. Maybe there’ll be one that he might want to take it all away. I really don’t know. But for the time being, THANK YOU LORD WITH ALL MY HEART, SOUL AND MIGHT. Glory be to God.