"“I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.” -Mother Teresa"
I am a country boy, born and raised on the farm, and enjoy spending time outdoors appreciating the beauty and wonders of nature. I am a student of life and wish to continue to learn throughout my life. I tend to be a hopeless romantic that concerns himself with the happiness of others before my own. I am a musician, a shy one, but have been known to serenade a loved one in private. I love animals and spend time volunteering at the local animal shelters. I generally see the potential in others and strive to help them achieve as much as possible in life. I am brutally honest (sometimes to a fault), and definitely have a streak of dark sarcasm but at the end of the day I am just trying to do the most good with the little time I have in this life.
Someone who likes to ponder over long inane thoughts, have intelligent conversations or just enjoy the silence together. Enjoys cuddling on the couch while watching a good movie, holding hands just because, and doing random acts of kindness because it brings them joy. Someone that prefers sensuality to sex, though not exclusively, lol, and appreciates the smallest of gestures sometimes have the greatest meaning. Hugs, kisses, and sweet whispers are always welcome and long walks while staring at the infinite stars in the sky makes for a perfect evening.
getting back on track, maybe...chillin' for the summer and getting back to basics, music, drinking, motorcycles, and friends ( not in that order necessarily ) Matt "Thoughtfull"Calm
- 10 years, 1 month, 4 days ago
more ramblings...tired...tired of always being strong, just want to rest my head down for a moment. want to feel someone's arms embrace me so I can rest for just a moment, let the weight of the world "float" away, share the burden, forever grateful to rest..for just a moment, a moment of kindness...it has been so long... Matt "Thoughtfull"Calm
- 10 years, 2 months, 11 days ago
Well its 12:35 am, and I anticipate another long night/morning ahead of me of restless thoughts and questions without answers. Soooo it seems that women of my past have snuck back into my thoughts making me re-question every choice, moment, feeling, that I had thought I had made peace with or at least had buried so far down in my subconscious that I wouldn't have to deal but alas here I all rambling to everyone/no one about my inane issues. The hardest part is that I loved them all. I know that I made the right decision time and time again to let them go so that they could find "true" happiness with someone that could fulfill all their needs and wants and enjoy the lives they where meant to live. And I am so happy to see that time and time again that has been the case. I am so fortunate to have had the time I did to share life and all its wonders with so many amazing people and still today maintain contact with many that I uttered the words "I love you" too. But I find in my solitude an emptiness that I have recognized far too many times growing, and encompassing all that I have that keeps me going from day to day. I see the wonders of the world I enjoy the beauty hat surrounds me but the darkness is ever growing, always beckoning me to forego "happiness" and realize that I am but a tool to help others find their potential, find their joy, and take solace in that fact that I had in some small way helped make that happen. Yet why do I feel so empty if my purpose is being met? Matt "Thoughtfull"Calm
- 10 years, 2 months, 17 days ago
ok, so I am very new at this sort of thing (technology and I don't exactly mix well), so please be patient with me if I stumble quite a bit or have absolutely no idea of what you may or may not be referring to within this site. Matt "Thoughtfull"Calm
- 10 years, 3 months, 10 days ago