The best revenge is moving on and being happy.
Unknown Content - 15 years, 9 months, 19 days ago

I saw it in her eyes
When I was sayin' goodbye
That girl, she ain't gonna be alright
'Cause I could tell
She'd be goin' through a livin' hell
And I wouldn't be there by her side

And Lord I felt so bad as I sat and watched her cry
Thinkin' I was movin' on and she was barely gettin' by

Look at what I've done to her
Low at how I made her feel
I gave back her heart, the broken part
She got the wrong end of the deal
And look at what it's done to me
You gotta know it tears me up
I gave it everything I had, and
Lord, it just wasn't enough
And hurtin' her like this seems so wrong
Yeah, look at what I've done to her
Now she's alone

I saw her out last night
And she was havin' a good time
That girl, it looks like she's doin' fine
But then I saw a man
Walk up and take her by the hand
And I, oh God, I almost died

And then it hit me, she didn't really need me
I just sat there for a while, until I finally smiled

Look at what I've done to her
Low at how I made her feel
She's found somebody new
And look who took the time to heal
And look at what it's done to me
You gotta know it tears me up
To have walked away from the love we made
And just leave it in a cloud of dust
And now it's got me thinkin' maybe I was wrong
After all the things I've done to her
Now she's strong

I walked up and said hello
She said, "It's good to see ya
But hey, I've gotta go"

Look at what I've done to her
Low at how I made her feel
She's standin' tall, she's got it all
Got the world at her heels
And look at what it's done to me
Look at how it makes me hurt
If I could go back now
I swear somehow
I'd find a way to make it work

Ain't life funny
Now I'm the one alone
Look at what I've done to me
She's gone

Unknown Content - 15 years, 9 months, 19 days ago

3 has become 4!!

Baby Jack is here! He arrived at 1:37pm on October 7th! He weighed 6lbs 15oz and was 20.75" long. He is beautiful and perfect and we couldn't be happier!

Doing the baby thing on my own is harder than I thought it would be, mostly in terms of exhaustion but I know that doesn't last forever. The kids are great with him and excited to be around him...unless he's crying, which isn't very often at all thankfully.

Thanks for the warm thoughts and good wishes during my pregnancy, it was a long 9 months and it really helped me stay focused and positive. This little man is one of the 3 best things I've ever done.
Unknown Content - 16 years, 19 days ago

32 weeks...

Missed another week! Time is flying by now and with only about 52 days until Jack's arrival things are in full swing! His nursery is just about finished, I'd like to find some pictures to put on his walls but the bedding and all of the furniture is in and set up! The rest of the house is coming along...I had 9 days without the other 2 and got a ton done but not quite as much as I'd planned. I have about 3 1/2 weeks until the midwife home visit, so I'd better get 'er done! Jack is a busy boy, making sure to let me know he's around with some good kicks and lots of rolling around. My belly is stretched out pretty good now, I don't know how much bigger it can get. I have to say that I'm loving every minute of this pregnancy now. I know it's my last and that makes me a little sad....only a little! The only time in my life I feel beautiful is when I have a big belly. :o) I'm very excited to meet my new little man.
Unknown Content - 16 years, 2 months, 18 days ago

30 weeks...

Well, this week has been the start of nesting I think. I'm running around the house trying to get the finishing touches on everything. Somehow by the end of the day my to-do list is longer than when I got up in the morning! Got Jack's dresser tonight, time to start washing and putting away his clothes. I still haven't gotten any bedding for him yet, maybe I'm too fussy but I want just the perfect set for my little man. Jack is getting so strong now and I'm feeling him thump away often. It's nice to have that bonding time with him although he seems to prefer 3 or 4 in the morning!

A little confusion again going on in my head. It's hard to look forward when all you want to do is go back, even for a day or two. I've learned this week that my heart is still healing and I'm still working very hard on being forgiving. Not always easy but in order to move on it needs to be done.

Geez, only 9 1/2 weeks to go...seems like forever and tomorrow at the same time! Thanks for all of the wonderful thoughts. Jack and I are doing fabulously and the other kids can't wait to meet their new baby brother!
Unknown Content - 16 years, 3 months, 1 day ago