don't know why but I feel so disappointed and exhausted recently. probably that's because the life is like a zebra - light stripe, dark stripe... now it's all dark, I guess the light one had been too wide.....
Unknown "Natty" Tired - 16 years, 3 months ago

after I get home I feel like screaming, crashing things and crying, but I have to suppress that not to disturb others. it's stupid to write it all here, but I really need to or I'll become numb soon.... I'm bleeding inside......
Unknown "Natty" Tired - 16 years, 3 months, 25 days ago

was thinking about life today. sometimes it's a bliss and it has been so for quite a while now. but now I don't feel the lightness and happiness any more. I don't know where I'm moving, what's waiting for me ahead. and I feel so lonely at the moment even though there are many people around me who seem to care about me....from time to time I'm overflown with depressions, and the more time I'm happy before that, the deeper and the gloomier the depression is. I start turning into smth like a zombie now. and the worst thing is that I don't want anyone around to find out what I'm feeling, don't want them to start analyzing my feelings.
Unknown "Natty" Tired - 16 years, 3 months, 25 days ago

I feel like screaming at the moment. have had an argument with the person that I care about, because of a stupid nuisance.... and now I feel like everything is not as it was.... is it just me making up things? I hope so. but it's such a burden! and I basically have noone to talk about it, don't want to load anyone with my problems or with what is not even yet a problem.... I just feel bad, incredibly bad.....
Unknown "Natty" Tired - 16 years, 3 months, 25 days ago

Classic: A book, which people praise, but do not read.

Smile: A curve that can set a lot of things straight.

Office: A place where you can relax after your strenuous home life.

Yawn: The only time some married men ever get to open their mouth.

Etc.: A sign to make others believe that you know more than you actually do.

Committee: Individuals who can do nothing individually and sit to decide that nothing can be done together.

Experience: The name men give to their mistakes.

Atom Bomb: An invention to end all inventions.

Unknown "Natty" Tired - 16 years, 4 months, 1 day ago