With ice coarsening through my veins, my hart go's numb.
The moment your warm, calm fingers pressed against my skin, i could almost feel my hart stop as time came to a stand still. I try to gasp for air, but cannot muster but a single breath as our eyes meet, and fire replaces my frost torn heart. Taking in a deep breath, i can almost feel your warmth scorch my lungs.
Breathing in the air fresher, a slight breeze fills the room with the intoxicating allure of your smell as it takes me to my knees.




~~~{<@ B_neath
B_neath_time "~♥~" Wild - 14 years, 11 months, 2 days ago

dead skin on Trial

chained, beaten, and locked up,
iv been cast down,
with no hope left around,
a voice is heard in my ear,
that my curse is but a fear.

shattered, torn apart and thrown away
my mind has been consumed.
ragging in and out,
of its internal intent,
but walls are now falling,
and my eyes can now see.

scorned, misunderstood, and seemingly deceived
i herd the fear and pain
described to me with all but one piece,
of mind,
tells me to take my head up,
and take your hand and soar.

bloody, burnt, and bruised all over,
iv given my self fully,
but to find my self pushed, falling,
looking back with an infinite awe,
that shreds my heart and mind.
fell to my death and tortured again, and again.

a rush of light
and the deepest breath ever taken,
the darkness flees with death at its heals
taken with the fear and doubt.
i now hold you firmly in my arms
let us leave this place together,
and start over fresh
lean on me and i will lean on you,
lift you up and take you away
to a place far to heated for any other.

id say id take you to the end,
but I fear this to be a lie
for no end in life or death
could ever take,
me away from you and all you are.
my wildest dreams,
and most contagious nightmares,
i bite my lip, and melt away.
hurt you not but what you ask of me
crave, and lust
tenderly i will ensure
your soul to be at rest.

the tip of my tong ragging with intent,
but can not just simply infect,
with the sinister poison inside
the simple words
but left out to show just how strong
my roots do sit.
taken up and tossed away,
to rot
i found my self unpredictably
calm and free.
lifted up and gave me water,
ill show you just how you mean to me.

tear them down and build me up,
ill hold you close and sweep you off your feet.
lets take control and grab the reign's,
and see what tomorrow has to offer.
ill do my best,
and say how it still gets me how
you just showed up with no warning.
gave me life and light,
sinister joy,
and consuming passion,
i smile now and look in your eyes...
B_neath_time "~♥~" Wild - 14 years, 11 months, 10 days ago

this is a story iv been working on, just a bit of it, i may post more latter :)


living B_neath the surface, i can almose taste freedom. the ecos of my voice surender me to my fate. i can not live the life i wish, but the one i must. breaking through the divide i surge forward like a freight train ripping my bodys flesh from bone, to become something new. unstoppable, yet so vonerable, i long to see another sun set, or sun rise.

inprissoned inside my head, living the ages as everthing, everyone, dies arround me. i "live" and learn all of there downfalls and live them for my own. swolen and brused from time, i can not justify the actions of my past but exictue them with poise and manner. the intoxicating fumes of the lifes last moments as blood runs cold, the only everlasting constant that never changes. cornered and full of fear they plead for freedom, or exept thier fate and pleed to join me. a choice that is held with caution, and a straight back at the sequince of the end of time its self. keeping a balance is held only for a small few that i only vaugly can say in a millenia can recall, but know it is not mine to give. untill one night, the unexpected happens and my victom became my match...

running down time, closer and closer i became untill the dark over came the night, and all light has gone. my powers are stronger there. i hold back only to lunge up and over my victom, only to find them gone. i stop, listen, no sounds. take a deep breath, smell nothing but the cold. "how could this be?" i think to my self. suddenly every once of blackend blood in my body feels as if its set afire, and out of the darkness somthing hits me and sends my back off my feet towards the light.

now only feeding off the blatent atemet at my life i adjust my spine, and conger the demon inside me. feeling the sudden surge of energy i rush back to find no one, nothing there. confused, and raging with anger, exitement, and, fear, im lost for thought to what has just happend. i can not smell or feel anyone, anything there. who, or what was that, and where did they go?...
B_neath_time "~♥~" Wild - 14 years, 11 months, 10 days ago

alright, this is something i wrote a little while ago, found it this morning, so i thought id put it up, it was an Opinion Essy :)

Through the advancement of technology, old ways, traditions, values, and religions change, and correspond with the times. as we advance with our civilization, we consume more and more coultures, and divers ways of life into "our own." all the time new and inproved ways of doing things are brought forward, and the old ways become more and more obsolete. just in the last century we have gone from a race that used horse and buggy, to steam engines, engines in general for that matter. our exploration of the seas, the sky, space, and the un-known has been the goal, and driving force of humanity. if you go back to traditional values, and ways of life, generally we had more respect, and admiration for nature, and life. as we advance, we have, and are loosing these important values.

sure we have become more efficient, reliable, and certain tasks have become easier. a task that would have taken several people to accomplish, could easily take only one person a shot amount of time, because of technology, and machines, but we are loosing what is really important. some cultures, native bands, tribes, towns are disappearing because of this globalization. as life gets easier for some, it makes it that much harder for others. supplies and economic musts are destroying old traditional ways as they get integrated into society. as we become a more and more globally standardized race, we become more reliable on these ways. this makes it potentially desasterious for smaller communities, societies, and cultures to survive alone, forcing them into the rest of the flow of things. but as well, on the other hand, some communities will flourish and grow with the advancement of ideas, and tools, also going into the traditional realm of things, evolving, and advancing different cultures in different ways.

on the other end of things, without the knowledge of these cultural values, where woud we be if it all collapsed? if everything that we hold for granted in the dependency that we have created for our selves on computers, and technology, was suddenly the down fall of our race, then who do you think would be able to maintain there cool, so to speak, and continue as if nothing, or very little has happened? it would be these outer expanses of cultural diversity that would really keep us together. we must try to go back to a more traditional way of things, use, and need. using our skills and minds to our advantages, through artisan trades, and more hands on ways of life, thinking, and dependency. i my self have learned many skills, and interesting trades, like baking, im a chef, ethnobotany, sailing, drafting, ect. just the making of breads, one of the most common staples of our society, is such an important skill to posses, to craft hand made breads that are soo good, from such simple ingredients, its amazing, and much the same gos for many other trades and applied skills that there are.
so please, the next time you go to a Mc Donald's, (puke*) or drive your car when you could have walked, sat at home and watched tv, instead of going for a nice walk and enjoying the sea, or mountain air, think about it, what if? what would we do? whould we really be able to cope with our technologically advanced and dependent race?

but there is always a bright, and a dark side to everything in the end any way, so who is to say what is right, or wrong?


B_neath_time "~♥~" Wild - 16 years, 6 months, 2 days ago

running and running in circles, trying to find a comfortable spot. over and over searching, but it seems just out of reach, and then, it disappears again. is it just a dream, or an illusion put on by reckless unassociated events? i lean, farther and farther, trying to hear a faint clue to the question i don't even know anymore. maybe it is just in my head after all, but it feels soo real. if i pinch my self now, i will feel pain, but it dose not Heart. is the pain real? or am i imagining it, building it up more and more until it consumes me. i don't know, i have to move so i can take up the plank I'm standing on, but if i do that, I'm not standing on it anymore. if i cant see what it is, then how am i supposed to know. lol, imagined thoughts of disillusioned morals i say. I'm not the one that sins, but the one that feels what i want to feel. lust, agony, greed, love..., and freedom. freedom to say, to act upon what sin full fantasies i have. we all hear the voice, but do not answer as if you feel obligated to just fit into the status Que.

I'm not buying into it. i know you can make you own decisions, unless you still don't dress your self in the morning. i know i do. i make my own planes, and see to it if i want to follow through, but with common certisie to my neighbour. i would not put up my hand to one that dose not scorn me, but laugh at them when they do, because they are just waisting their energy, and time. but that all its own is another investment, Time, it comes, it gos, it last forever, and has seen all, and herd more then any could fathom. i cant Begin to relate to the intense energy surrounding time, to master, is to evolve.

open you eyes with me now, i can feel everything inside you moving as a constant. let your self go free, breath, and close your eyes, sit, concentrate on nothing, but your breathing, and you hart beat. now open you inner eye, and see the world around you move. grow. live. die. feel your self at peace. and in no pain, or bliss. just feel, feel the air, and don't let it go until you have woken up. i don't want to force you to be alive, but, press you to open your own mind and look around.

i have no more to say.
B_neath_time "~♥~" Wild - 16 years, 6 months, 11 days ago