By the way, I just added a slew of new photos. I put my cat, Arty up there, new ones of myself, and my fiance!

Unknown "Absolute Ninja" Loving - 16 years, 4 months, 14 days ago

I saw in the Asbury park Press how the low life scum bag from Jackson got 7 years in prison for beating his poor female cockerspaniel, and then delivering the death blow with a hammer to the head. Trailer shitbag deserves to get beat. I saw a thing on Yahoo about the Spaniards and their bullfighting. Does it make the Spaniards and the bullfighters feel like biger men? Probably. Fucing legal animal abuse. Slowly hurt and bleed and turture the bull before the deathblow. Great fellas, great.



SO fucking sickning how animals without choice get tortured and abused.

Unknown "Absolute Ninja" Loving - 16 years, 4 months, 15 days ago

Now I'm down in it. Great NIN song, and it certainly has described me on more than several occasions. This is a blog I really don't care who reads it, but it was more for me. On the same note, I do not believe in the "diary" or preferred list blogs because you might as well write shit on a Word document if it is for no one but your own eyes.

With that said, I write this blog. I write this blog because I look around and see myself in a bad place, career wise. In my shitty little copany, I am probably the lowest paid Manager in the company...Maybe not the lowest, but close to it. I could have been living pretty good at my old location with a free apartment if they fired the moron who I used to work with. But, they fire him 1 month after I move into an apartment in Toms River. Thanks. Now, in May was the worst month at my job. Wait, it gets worse. June we were in the negative. Christ. While the irony of the Executioner tattooed on my arm lingers over my head as I write this, I find my self looking at two ravens out side my office window right now, knowing the executioner if prepping to take my head this time. I probably will not see August at my current place of employment.

I am definitely one of the least successful people I know, career wise. In life, I am engafged to a beautiful fiance, set to be married in 2009. I live in an apartment with her, and have great pets. I recently lost 20 lbs, and now down about 45 lbs. from November. But shit, if I'm not getting paid, what good is it? Nothing going on on the job hunt yet. I have an interview with qa major stand-alone department store which I hope works. I happen to think I have a good chance at a major food chain, also. But, we'll see. I know I am going to school to finally get out from the bottom of the barrel, but can't I have some room to breathe and a taste of medial success until then? Something I can be at least partially proud to rep. as my "career" or "job"?

I guess we'll see, and time will tell. To clip a quote Trent Reznor from another song

"Somewhere out there.......Anywhere
I don't care
Get me out of here"

Unknown "Absolute Ninja" Loving - 16 years, 4 months, 17 days ago

I kinda feel like Korn's Did My Time about now:

Realized I can never win
Sometimes feel like I have failed
Inside where do I begin?
My mind is laughing at me

Tell me, why am I to blame?
Aren't we supposed to be the same?
That's why I will never tame
This thing thats burning in me

I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldn't last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me

Sometimes I can never tell
If I got something after me
That's why I just beg and plead
For this curse to leave me

Tell me, why am I to blame?
Aren't we supposed to be the same?
That's why I will never tame
This thing thats burning in me

I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldn't last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me

Betrayed
I feel so
Enslaved
I really tried
I did my time
Unknown "Absolute Ninja" Loving - 16 years, 4 months, 17 days ago

I am relatively new to Human Pets and searching for some good people to migle with. GOt started on a couple of pets and owner and all ready to go!
Unknown "Absolute Ninja" Loving - 16 years, 5 months, 7 days ago