I want to be happy,like it was in the beginning. When just being around you made me smile. I want you to look at me with the admiration you do other girls and speak to me with such charm as you do to them...but at the same time I know I'm not nearly as beautiful or thin as they are.
I want you to care enough when I'm sad to get out of bed and hold me, instead of just falling asleep.
I want you to spend time with my parents, like I do with yours. Get to know them for who they are and not what they are...but at the same time I know its not neccesary cause we're not going to last.
I want you to be as dedicated to me as you are to your job and family...and at the same time I know your trying but there's just to many people to keep happy!
I want you to talk like there could be a future for us. Talk about future plans like I'm going to still be as big a part of your life as I am now...but at the same time I know you dont have to cause we both know I'm not going to be there.
I want to feel loved, and cherished. I want you to say "I love you" on a daily basis, and not just when I'm sad and look like I'm falling apart.
I want you to be yealous when I go out with some other guy, just because the thought of losing me drives you crazy...but at the same time I know it doesn't!
I want to stop crying at night and spend my time on my phone, because your to tired to even talk to me after we get into bed, but spend every night of the weekend staying up with friends talking about random stuff that you won't even remember the next day anyway!
I want to be happy!! And I want to stop crying. And I want to believe that this relationship is going somewhere and is not just a waste of my time. I want to believe that things are going to get better, but at the same time I know the best of times have passed never to return again.
I want to, but I can't!!
Olga "<3 :3 <3"
- 16 years, 4 months, 23 days ago
