Good evening everybody, haven't been online for awhile due to sickness. I feel like shit runned over, I think it's the flue I'm not sure but it left My back a complete mess. Starting to feel a little better but now the kids got it which is always a pain in the ass. Oh yeah and lets not forget Miriam she got it last... err today well she was still the last but anyways gonna go get some Children's cough syrup for Anders and Areli. and a few other things. Later!
Unknown "My Papi" Growling - 16 years, 1 month, 3 days ago

Hiya people, just cleaning the bedroom right now getting the kids to bed, making bottles and so forth, waiting for the misses to come home soon so we can have a nice fat one and then we'll have a close encounter with the sexual kind! lol. Yeah I need to let people know of a few things, this isn't directed to anyone in particular I just need to make sure that ALL people know this and understand this. I love My wife. Even though we're not technically married due to religious differences, but I'm committed to Her. I have never cheated on My girl... in fact... I never cheated on a girl once! So if you girls come by thinking that by some chance I might leave My woman for you... you better start thinking about your future more often cause it ain't going anywhere with Me. I don't get how some guy can do that to a girl, one isn't enough, bullshit like that. And then guys wonder why women are bitchy and just want them for the money, they don't even care that it's retaliation against themselves for the way they treated girls, they meet a hooker or a stripper and assume that every girl is like that. Pathetic! I made a vow to My mother, who raised Me by herself, since My father and her were battling over if he was the real father (typical male to deny responsibility); that I would never cheat on a woman, nor would I turn My back on her if she came to Me in confidence about pregnancy. Sure, I was fucking scared as Hell and wished I could turn back time to wait a little longer to have kids. 19 isn't the right age to be starting obviously. But that's life... right?
Unknown "My Papi" Growling - 16 years, 1 month, 10 days ago

Just felt like putting this one up. written in 2004 January 15.

Suffering From My Own Demise

Stripped of My pride
Distal from all aspects of human nature
Accustomed to failure
Sanctuary is found in self-deceit
For murder is art,
I do concede

Of all existence to be perpetual
Mine is found in tyranny
Will justice be for all?
Or will disparities call for malignancy?

The heart is drowning in alabaster
Blood pours poison
Words become white lies
And emptiness becomes the sinister

Why do I deny the pantomime behind your eyes?
Question for an answer
Yet I remain juxtapose

Face the prophecy within the darkness
Then shall we realize Our inner nothingness

Words of truth...
May eventually fail
But words of lies...
Can always be domineering

Face the prophecy... within My darkness
Desolation will reveal your starkness
Another product for society
Held for collateral against My own will
Trapped forever in purgatory

Through the Looking Glass,
I regain my perception of the shit I must face
Help Me,
Before I fall to My own demise...



Unknown "My Papi" Growling - 16 years, 1 month, 10 days ago

The Act of Disappearing

It's that time again
When the coldness of Life consumes Me
I wash the blood every night for you
But I can't seem to comprehend
Baby you're the only one for Me to watch drown
Can't seem to comprehend Love

Why does it devour?
I want to unplug from the world
Carry Myself into the unknown and die
Watch My soul uplift into the aether
Dissipate into the ozone

The blackness will cover all of Me
Darkness will vie with Light
Chaos
It breeds within Me
An implosion wll ensue anon

You were right My love
I am the detonator
Self destruction is an art
Or is it the act of disappearing?

Where the river flows
You will find me as the victim of autumn
Hoping for the exit to reappear
So I can join you in what you call reality

Still behind the mirror
Your head fills with wonder and I watch you cry
Pregnant with death
She comes to Me within the pitch of night
With heat on the breath a fire burns with desire

She mourns the Sun

He Mourns the One

No one listens anymore
A surprise attack on the senses
Watch Me bleed the universe
As you stumble to recollect yourself

The implosion has begun and I disappear

Written by Me and no one else on this day as recorded!
Unknown "My Papi" Growling - 16 years, 1 month, 12 days ago

Hello everyone, Christoper here. Yeah just to let everyone know I'm not an internet junkie so I don't like to come online as often as I could or would, I'm usually playing 360 in My "spare" time. Either that I'm taking care of My kids, I love how My daughter's personality has evolved over the past years, she randomly comes up with a hug and kiss. Says things to me I wouldn't expect: "Why do youwork Daddy?"; "Are you okay Daddy!?"; "Awwww did you get a boo-head? (Boo head is translation for boo boo on the head lol)". She's smart, if I'm hurt she tries to massage the area that hurts like My arm or foot. She helps Her mother do the cooking and cleaning the dishes, she likes alot of the music I listen too, she likes her moms and her own favourites like Gwen Stefani and Gnarles Barley or Daft Punk. My son's personality is mischievous, he knows when he's going to touch something and he shouldn't by giving the cute innocent smile and giggle then touch it and cause a catastrophe. And strong!!! Holy shit he's strong, picks up chairs and moves them across the room to get them out of his way. He runs too! But then falls down. It'sd weird, sometimes I find Myself drifting off wondering how much My son is like Me and so is My daughter. The different traits they show, My sons looks so much like I did when I was a baby. My son is beautiful. My daughter is beautiful too, like Her mother. Sometimes I wish I could take My kids and leave to a deserted island or someplace out in the forest and leave this city. I need to be alone with My family, no human interference. I enjoy tranquillity like when My son goes to sleep, sometimes I have to be topless, bare chest skin and the sound of My beating heart puts My son asleep at nights. Even puts the misses to bed after sex! Lol! I told Her, My chest has the magic touch to put you asleep. Anyways getting bored of typing so much, so I'm gonna jet off and call ma baby at home and find out how she's doing!
Unknown "My Papi" Growling - 16 years, 1 month, 12 days ago