Dexter, I love you. You were too good of a person to be killed the way that you were. I remember you picking up the fractured pieces of myself when my dad died. I remember you ALWAYS being there. I need you here now and you've been stolen from me. I want to kill the vile creature that took your life, but I know you wouldn't want me to. I remember the last time we talked. Whenever I felt weak or alone you were there. Now you're gone and I've never felt so alone. I'm in pieces again and you aren't here to fix me. You've been a father to me for 18 years. You've always been there when I was hurting and now I'm hurting because an asshole took your life. I don't know who to turn to now. I don't know what to do. I know that you would say The Creator deemed it to be this way, but I just can't see The Creator putting and end to your life in such a violent, cruel and horrifying way. What merited you being stabbed? You were an elder and a warrior. You deserve so much more than this, even in death. I'm not ready to let you go. I'm not ready to not have you in my life. When my dad died, I thought that I would never feel alive again. You helped me grieve. Now you're gone too and I know I'll never heal. I'll never open my heart again. I'll never find the strength again that I found in you. I'll never be able to call you again just to hear your voice, or to ask your advice or to tell you I fucked up. I had a bad feeling when you told me you were moving to London. I told you it would be the death of you. I wish that for once my feeling had been wrong. I know that if you were here right now you would tell me that everything was going to be ok. At this point, I just don't see how it will be. I know that one day I will look up to the sky and tell you that you were right, but I don't think that will happen for a very long time. You've always been my rock. Now it's time for me to be your spirit dancer. I love you. I always have and I always will. You always taught me to never give up, in your honour, I never will. You will always be in my heart and my mind. Your spirit will now grace the Great Spirit Plain. On teh day that our spirits are reunited, I know that you will be waiting for me at the Western door. I wish I had told you how I felt the last time I talked to you. I took it for granted that I would have infinite opportunities to tell you. I should have said the words, and in not doing so, will regret it for the rest of my life. I know that you know, but I wish I had told you. I'm stumbling around right now but thanks to you, I know that eventually I will be able to clearly see the way again. Ride well dear warrior. May the blessings of The Creator sustain you in the Great Spirit Plain.

For everything you taught me in life, Kca Mequetch.

Lee-Ann


Lee-Ann Cioffi "Gorgeous" Adored - 13 years, 1 month, 7 days ago

I will be away for awhile. Will let you all know when I am back. A couple of you know why and I hope you understand my absence. I will pop on when I can, however, it won't be very often for awhile.
Lee-Ann Cioffi "Gorgeous" Adored - 13 years, 2 months, 9 days ago

12 year old and 14 year old sisters go home and tell their parents that they are 4 months and 2 months pregnant respectively.
Then they tell them that the same guy has fathered both of their children and that he is 18 years old.
They tell their parents that they are scared and sorry.
Through all of this, the parents listen without saying a word.
At the end, the parents turn to their daughters and ask them 2 questions.
1. Did he rape you? and 2. How can we help?
The daughters both answer that he did NOT rape them and that they are scared but that they don't want to have abortions because "it isn't fair to the babies".
Their parents are proud of them for being mature enough to not blame the babies, and also for trusting their parents enough to come talk to them.
The parents offer them support and guidance and the young girls once again feel safe and confident.
People (Including some of the parents friends), are quick to judge them. The people blame everything from music, to TV, to video games to bad parenting.
What none of them are realizing is that if it had been bad parenting, the girls never would have had the maturity to turn to their parents. Parents can GUIDE their children to better decisions, but ultimately the decisions are made solely by the child. These girls had the maturity and common sense to realize that the mistakes were THEIRS and THEIRS alone and that THEY had to make a decision again.
The girls DECIDED that it was no fault of their unborn children that they chose to have sex. Therefore they didn't feel that the children should pay for THEIR mistakes.
In my eyes, that's GOOD parenting.
Music, TV, Video Games? Really? That's like saying that nobody on this earth has a mind of their own. We all do. We ALL make our own decisions, good or bad. We have to live by them. Most people can't take blame upon themselves and will look for ANY scapegoat.
This tactic is NOT right.

Thank you for listening to my personal point of view. You may not agree with me, and that's okay. You are entitled to your own opinion.
Lee-Ann Cioffi "Gorgeous" Adored - 13 years, 2 months, 20 days ago

Hey everyone, I'm not sure if I'll be around much the next few days. I was at the hospital last night and am on some pretty heavy pain killers. I will come one as often as I can, but it will be minimal for about a week. Hope everyone has a great weekend and a terrific week.
Lee-Ann Cioffi "Gorgeous" Adored - 13 years, 3 months, 3 days ago

I know it's been awhile since I've been online. I haven't forgotten about you all, I've just been extremely busy.
I hope that you've all been well.
Lee-Ann Cioffi "Gorgeous" Adored - 13 years, 4 months, 4 days ago