so yeah my bday is March 10th, Monday this year. And like I'm happy about yeah ppl are saying happy bday, but in reality, nothing is really happening. Cause yeah last year on the 8th I ran away from to where I live now, and been living here ever since. And I could get into detail how I don't get along with my mom, and now the cops weren't at my moms house every week cause my step dad and I use to get in "physcial attercations." But I don't want pity. Cause who you were helps you to be who you are now, and I'm 85% happy with who I am now and life in general. And I know I still have a lot to learn, but I feel like I'm old as fuck cause of all the shit I've been through. And yes I know a lot of ppl have been in worse, but everyone goes through shit and it effects everyone different. So in reality everyone is the same. And my point with that sentence was that I feel old as hell even tho I'm turning only 17. Like big whoap, 17. There are so many years ahead (I hope) but like yeah. I've been there and seen a lot of shit in my life. And I never got to hang with ppl my age when I lived with my mom (please no pity) and so I hung out with ppl a lot older than me, and heard their stories.
But what happens when you've been through all their stories. (Yes I know, "blaze your own trail") but like drugs, you name i've most likely did it (quit all but 3...ciggs, pot, and booze/beer) and trouble with school, I'm like a poster child for what not to do in/out school (NOT proud) and I'm in the process of turning my life around, but I still feel like I've been here, I did all this shit already. And it's just, Idk. (NO I'M NOT THINKING SUCIDE) But yeah, life is starting to seem like a repeat, a hook in a rap beat, a chours in a punk athem, a chord in a rock song, even the same story in country songs...it all seems the same to my life.
So I guess somehow my point of ramble there is..."""What do you do when you feel like you've been everywhere but your trail, and you can't make your trail, cause someone somewhere has already been in the same spot?"""
***And that raise another question since I think about that question..."""Does this somewhat raise the theory of recarnation of a pervious life that you don't remember, and the live you live now is the combination of all lives you lived before?"""
*******Yes this is all written by the point and view of Kristoffer David Sproul a.k.a. "ZiGGY StONES" a (at the moment) 16 year old "kid" living in Green Bay, Wisconsin.*******
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- 16 years, 8 months, 27 days ago
