you know when you were a little kid
and you grow up reading fairytales.
believing in them, wanting and dreaming of a life like that.
always knew that deep inside that there would come a day.


Unknown "~Toby's~" Playful - 17 years ago

that fantasy of what your life would be,
white dress, prince charming and his carraige
who would carry you away to a castle on a hill.
crazy as it seems.

at night after reading your storybook,
you would lie in bed at night with your eyes closed
and with complete and utter faith that it's all real.

Unknown "~Toby's~" Playful - 17 years ago

at the end of the day faith is a funny thing.
it turns up when you don't really expect it.
santa clause, the tooth fairy, prince charming
they were so close you could taste them.
but eventually you grow up,
one day you open your eyes and the fairytale slowly disappears.
most people turn to the things and people they can trust.
but the thing is its hard to entirely let go of the fairytale
cause almost everyone has the smallest bit of hope,
of faith that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.


it's like one day you realize that the fairytale may be slightly different than you dreamed.
the castle, well, it may not be a castle. but it's not that important.
and the journey may not be as surreal as it is
but yet still reaching out for a happy ever after.


Unknown "~Toby's~" Playful - 17 years ago

this strong dream i'd with this cinderella theme
is driving me crazy.
because i want a fairytale so bad that i cant have a single flaw in my r/s.
that it's actually tearing me apart.
because i expect so much out of my r/s.
but im still holding on to that dream.
because i believe in my happy ending.

Unknown "~Toby's~" Playful - 17 years ago

Built dreams with people i hoped would be with me forever,only to wake up to reality that nothing is permanent in this love. I woke up one day realizing that i lost the person whom i ought to love & protect. But i realized it's too late. He's moving on."


Unknown "~Toby's~" Playful - 17 years ago