Well, things have been beginning to lighten up for me...even though I can't see my parents (and miss them to death) I have been starting to accept the fact that I won't see either of them until the 28th of March. Accepting this helps with the pain. I'm getting used to it, but I do not like the t that I am still treated like a child. I'm not allowed to leave the house after dark, I am not allowed to stay at home over night with nobody there, and through all of this, I am a teenager. I'm not a little girl anymore. I can make my own decisions. And if I make a mistake, let my nose bleed. I'll get back up and learn from it.

March break is okay...I have people that keep me company through these lonely days. Some people are really helping me through this difficult time. They are both my pets and my best friend, Sister Tyri. You all have been a tremendous help ^_^ *hugs each of you*
In contrast, there is a person that left me in this miserable time. This person helped me through so much throughout the year...oh well, it's his loss but it hurts me most.

That's all for now, I'll try to make posting a habit. ~toodles~
Unknown "Jesso Wolf" Timid - 16 years, 7 months, 28 days ago

And now I'm falling into a few weeks of Hell. Mom is being taken away from me...under doctor's order...and I have to deal with Dad and his...ways...I also have to look after my Grandfather, who can't walk...and the animals...my babies...Oh, I don't know what I'll do :'( Mom's being taken from her bloodpressure meds...her smokes...her antidepressants...she's a pretty good target for a heart attack, don't you think?

I might not be on in a bit...and I'll need lots of love...keep faith everyone. I'll miss you.

Love you Mom...
Unknown "Jesso Wolf" Timid - 16 years, 8 months, 13 days ago

Lately I've been feeling like crying until my eyes bleed...I have many reasons...I just wish things could lighten up. As soon as I find something that makes me happy, they end up falling appart...Where is my safety? Where is my shelter? Why is everyone around me so sad? I can't help them...and that makes me feel like everything is being ripped away from me...I guess I just need someone that cares...anyone...anything...I just need help :'(

I have given up...I don't think this will ever end...
Unknown "Jesso Wolf" Timid - 16 years, 8 months, 23 days ago

Well, I just came into a new semester...and I'm getting scared. I have Math, Science, Civics, and Phys-ed...and here's the story about all of them today.

Well, if you know me well enough, you know that Math is my total weakness. It's too hard for me...The teacher hasn't taught grade 10 math in a long time, she's a grade 11 teacher. SHE MOVES WAAAYYY TOO FAST!!!!! We're expected to have 8 questions done in ten minutes...FYI here!! Grade tens do not have the power of God!!!

Next is Science....which is moving WAAYYY too slow for my pace. I am a science wiz, I love it. they have the coolest things in the classroom!!!! I'll discuss if asked.

Civics...thumbs down. It's boring...Though I do have some friends sitting close by, so I'm not totally upset. One guy in my group is a little creepy...he's from Sanfransico(or however it's spelt). I must admit...he's difficult. He talks REAAAAALLLLLYYYY sloooowwwwlllllyyy....and it makes me a little nervous. I don't know how to deal with him.

Omg...phys-ed...there is male phys-ed in the other half of the gym(blocked by a sliding wall) and they keep opening the doors and sliding around onto our side of the gym -_-' it's really bothersome and it makes me nervous when we do our excersizes...I guess some people can relate. But they barge in at least ten times a period. -_-' ugh...it's horrible.

well, my new semester isn't the best, but I have to live with it for a while I guess....besides that making me depressed, there are some ppl that I wish I could talk to more. These people take stress off me...but I'm soo busy. I don't see any way to get around to talking. So I build up in stress.....hmm....I guess it could be worse. At least I still have a roof over my head ^_^
Unknown "Jesso Wolf" Timid - 16 years, 9 months, 4 days ago