Contest we got a 1. The best you can get.
Choirs fine. Another concert May 13
Band is fine. Another concert May 12. We are playing Zorro for out Marching season next year.
Meghan.... we aren't friends, but I say hi once in a while.
Tyler.... I completly ignore him and vice versa. He's joined with Emily. And they told Meghan that Tim and I talk about her behind her back, when we don't.
Emily and I still hate eachother of course.
Tim is still great. And he's on my side about EVERYONE. He doesn't like Tyler Meghan or Emily, AND Sarah, whom I also hate with a passion and unfortunatly shes the one who I take out my wrath on. She thinks she is going to be section leader for the mellophones. Thats not going to happen, she doesn't know how to march herself. And I'm older and better and I'M going to get it.

My birthday way May 6th. I'm 16 now. My party at the rec plex yesterday was very very small, just me Jessica and Rachel. My cat sat on my cake this morning. I almost cried. He only messed up a little part though so I guess it's okay. It's just pretty. I love it. Purple and gold with music notes, made especially for me.
I bought Twilight, New Moon, and Eclipse. I finnished Twilight last night, I bought it Friday night. I bought the other 2 yesterday, I haven't started New Moon yet.
My hair has gone insane... I tried to straighten it, and it didn't make it much better. Chlorine from swimming. I also have a summer cold, I keep snezzing and my nose ring hurts to the touch.
I wish I had someone to snuggle to right now.
I can't beleive I'm admitting that to the public eye.
Oh. I forgot, Kansas City was a competition. We got first for 5-A schools all around the midwest, and 2nd place overall (Blue Springs won, no suprise there, they are the best of the best.)
Happy Mothers Day >.<
Gotta Go.
Unknown "8) Very Nice (8" Uncertain - 16 years, 6 months, 1 day ago

yah. That didn't work. Oh well. I'm NOT concided, I AM a bit selfish, but whatever cause I want someone who likes who I am and isn't going to doubt me cause I say one little thing!!
Ah!

Okay it's out of my system. But forreal I'm like.... better than yesterday.
Kristen still needs me, Tim still loves having me around, Dri is still telling me things, my world ISN'T crashing down and it's really amazing to know that I won't be flaked on. Meghan doesn't hate me?! W/e thats cool with me.

CHOIR CONCERT TUESDAY!
MEXICO ON SATURDAY!
KANSAS CITY APRIL 19TH!
NEBRASKA JUNE 28TH!
PARIS JULY 1ST!

Wow. I moved to Missouri on July 1st.... I'm leaving the country July 1st.... The Irony.
Unknown "8) Very Nice (8" Uncertain - 16 years, 7 months, 15 days ago

Okay well I just got a text and I thought I might as well post again since it was about my last post.
Yeah, I got a bit cocky. I don't ever GET attention, and I was pretty happy when I finally got some and I didn't want to complain for once. As for the hot thing, I was totally kidding and I really don't think that. I just loved what I bought. I adored my outfit! Thats all.....
As for the guys thing, yeah, it was true. I got asked out twice in 3 days, it boosted my selfesteem, but I didn't/don't like those guys. I do flirt with guys pretty much 24/7 unless I'm in a bad mood or sick, it's my nature. And no, I haven't been broken up with. I have always broken up with guys. But thats not meaning I think I'm a player. I've only dated 3 guys, kissed 2, and made out with 1! Hell, I didn't even like the first two! Fuck....

But apparently what I've been saying led someone on the path thinking that I'm conceited and a player. I need to straighten it out. Because this person means the world to me and theres nobody that compares. I can't imagine not talking to them, when I think about them every single day.....

Whatever though. I can't change anything thats happened. And I do have a life other than all of this crap. I just can't talk about it much because what people told me that I WANT to talk about told me it's confidential and I'm respecting that... Just things. More therapist-ness. I think thats the ONLY think I'll ever be good for. Maybe it's the only reason they keep me around. I mean, I have huge jealousy issues and a short temper. And I think the only reason TIM keeps me anound is because we hate the same person, and he's the only one I can talk to when I want to complain. Meghan and I fight all the time. Like today.... partly her attitude partly my jealousy. Tyler I hardly talk to anymore and when I do it's not deep, just 'hi, whats up? me too! Bye!' But he never really was deep, he's like a little kid that you have to sheild from all the nasty horrid things in the world from. Tim isn't like that, Tim enjoys the evil, and enjoys causing havoc in every way possible.... How could two twins be THAT different?

I need to think.... my head is hurting now. tis isnt a great time for stress.
Oh shit. And I have a choir concert on Tuesday..... someone remind me?
Unknown "8) Very Nice (8" Uncertain - 16 years, 7 months, 16 days ago

I really need to watch wheat I wish for. I said that the only guys I talked to I thougt of as brothers. Well, then BOOM. All the sudden I have like... 2 guys pleading for me to go out w/ them, a guy I flirt with, and 3 other guys that like me, and my ex and I are in contact... again.
Except, only 2 of these guys go to my school. And, I have no date to the Spring Formal, on Sat. Argh. Too bad for them. My dress, shoes, jewelry, and ME altogether? I'll be the hottest thing since Pizza Rolls. Oh yah. I'll be the coolest thing since pickles. I'll be the.. ok I can't think of anything else. But J/k.
Still, I am a little glad to have no date, b/c then I'm not forced into anything. I can run around with my friends w/o a guy hanging on me, and I don't have to dance with just one person, or anyone for that matter.
My school lets people from other schools come as dates, but..... No. I'm not gonig to ask anyone. Actually, I asked my ex. Turns out he's prolly not going, which I am going to consider as turning me down b/c I've never been turned down, and I don't like that. I mean... I do like that. But at the same time, I DON'T like that I've had boyfriends but never been dumped. Does that make me a bitch? Or them needy? My mind wanders more than a butterfly.

Happy days this weekend. Great weather. I played with Kiley. I'm so happy, I've missed her so much, when she grabbed my hand I almost cried. Kiley, is like my little sister. She's four now, and growing up so fast....
I saw her father too, Shane. I hugged him, but he had to go, he isn't allowed on the property. *apartments, his father lives accross the hall from me*
Things..... Things are changing.
Unknown "8) Very Nice (8" Uncertain - 16 years, 8 months, 11 days ago

Ahhh! Okay, I'm in a good mood!
I'm not sick! And! I'm friends with someone again! No, not the girl who used to be my friend, someone else, TIM! He's really depressed lately though so....
Also, a showchoir invitational was at my school this weekend, and this guy went with me...
Okay, this guy is like, amazing. He's nice, funny, REALLY cute, and my friends like him! And I think Dri would apporve of him. I really hope so. Dri is my best friend, it's a guy, he's like my brother. And I told him that I would make sure he approved of any guy that I thought of actually having a relationship with, ever since my last relationship that was really serious, and it turns out Dri didn't like him.
I've been thinking. It's horrible. Okay, I have all these guys around me, and NONE of them I would date. I mean, they are ALL like brothers to me. It's scary, and my friends think it's really sad, because when I tell something that happened, they ask me if I like them or if they are cute and things like that, and it's pitiful that I'm always like "NEVER!".
Lets see. I have.... 7 guy friends at least, (I just did a quick count) that I think of as brothers and wouldn't date. Pitiful, right?

Then there's this guy, who it's like OMG. I actually find myself thinking 'is this guy horny non-stop!?' It's sad really. He wanted a blow job from me to get a ride. Also, he has a GF. And they plan on living together and she's going to be a prostitute, becaue he said and I quote: "cause by then she will be loose as a goose and i wont wanna do her anymore so she can do someone else" Unquote. He's cute, but OMG.
Thank gosh, the amazing guy that I talked about earlier came and got me and drove me.

V-day is in 2 days, I think I'll have a valentine. I know I'll get asked at LEAST once but...

Okay. Well, I'm done talking on here....
Unknown "8) Very Nice (8" Uncertain - 16 years, 9 months ago