I WANT TO GO HOME, I MISS MY FAMILY AND LIFE I LEFT BEHIND, IM BATELING AND BROKE. I CANT CARRY ON LIKE THIS, THIS IS NOT WHERE I WANT TO BE IN MY LIFE. I WANT TO GO HOME, MY HEART IS BROKEN AND DREAMS CRUMBLED. I THOUGHT I WOULD BE EASY, BUT MY LIFE HAS BECOME A COMPLETE MESS AND A COMPLETE WASTE OF ENERGY. I HAVE GIVEN EVERYTHING I AM FOR NOTHING IN RETURN. MY DECISIONS HAVE BEEN SOMETHING I THOUGHT WOULD OF BEEN WORTH IT. IM STRUGGLING AND BATELING TO COPE, I HAVE BEEN LIVING A LIFE FAR WORSE THEN HELL IT SELF CAN THROW AT ME. PEASE LORD IF U ARE LISTEN TO ME, PLSEASE HELP ME.
Unknown "B1" Hopeless - 15 years, 4 months, 12 days ago

one foot in front of the other and walk, no one said it was going to be easy and a walk in the park, its dam hard, and painstaking. If there are hearts out there, and you know who you are, that im sorry and i hope one day you can forgive me for my actions, but for once in my life, i need to be selfish and think of me. I pray to God im doing the right thing. I pray to him every night to give me guidance. But i cant live in regret, i cant live life not knowing what could of been.
Unknown "B1" Hopeless - 15 years, 4 months, 17 days ago

wow, what a roller-coaster I've been on since I've been in NZ. And boy have i grown. I miss my friends and family back home so much. But no matter what i do, there is no remedy for a broken heart. My heart is in so many pieces, and unfortunately only time can heal it. Time is something i don't want to endure. As i endure it alone. You know when you tell people you going over seas, they are so happy for you, and they tell u you are going to grow as an individual, i wish they told me abit more about this growing thing, its absolute torture. But the best way forward is to follow youre footsteps.
Unknown "B1" Hopeless - 15 years, 4 months, 17 days ago

so i think its week 2 in NZ. wow wat a cultural experience. i miss my foodage back home. i miss well basically ill put it this way. I MISS THE CRIME. there is like no noise here, and the fod, well. lol. i have never come across stranger things. i am missing borewors and biltong, and dstv. lol. im a complete baby. but alass its a awesome experience. ive seen and done things i never thought id do, ever. i mean i flew have way around the world, and all by myself. yay for me. "claps"

Unknown "B1" Hopeless - 15 years, 5 months, 16 days ago

so its monday afternoon, and its my last week here in SA. i leave to go to new zealand. the time has just flowen by so fast. boy im gonna miss cat. she is my litle minx. but ill see her soon. i will put up oics from my trip while im there. ill keep in contact on facebook and all that jazz. im so excited and cant wait to fly over mile and lmiles of sea and land. wooohoooo. KIWIS HERE I COME.
Unknown "B1" Hopeless - 15 years, 6 months, 7 days ago